I had the most awful cravings today!

[LeaAnn807]

Hey everybody!  I had the most debilitating cravings today.  They seemed to go on forever!  I have not had any this bad since I got clean in March.  It was absolutely miserable.  I have had cravings before, lots of times, but they are usually over in about 30 minutes, and I am able to fight them off.  Not today.  It took everything I had in me to not use.  I don't really even know why it happened????  I have a lot going on but nothing that should have caused that.  THEN.....my internet went down and was out most of the day.  I was ready to be shot at that point!!!!! : )  

I went to a meeting, but I really didn't even want to do that.  I think all I wanted to do was feel sorry for myself and try to figure out why it was happening??? I don't know what good I thought that would do.  I'm just not used to feeling that kind of weakness.  I'm usually a tough one, but today I felt weak all over!  It lasted so long that now I can't even go to sleep and feel exhausted from it.  Like....it took a lot out of me physically and emotionally?  Does that make sense?  

So, if you guys can, please send some prayers up for me or good vibes or positive energy or whatever helps!!!  If today is any indication of what tomorrow will be like, I'm in serious trouble!!!!!

Thanks!  I'm so proud of all of you for fighting so hard with me to beat this!!! : )  

[dominosarah]

I am glad you arent by yourself.  Keep reaching out today until you are back to feeling like yourself.  Sometimes we have to take a couple steps back to see the progress we have made and to be grateful again for what we have.  I know it is a rotten thing to have to go thru to see all the good but this is addiction.  Be proud of yourself for getting thru this.  Get rid of those impending doom feelings.  Focus on the positive!!  I am really proud of you tram as you worked thru this and are continuing on your road of recovery.  You are in control of you now, not your addiction........sara

[LeaAnn807]

Ok.....well, it doesn't seem as bad this morning, but I have that feeling of impending doom.  This is just so not me!!!  I HATE IT!  I honestly don't know how anyone stands this all the time!  I'd go crazy.  I have read posts on here and even tried to help people with cravings, but I don't really think I "got it" until yesterday!  But....I DO now.  I was awake until about 4 this morning, just in disbelief!  It hit me hard, I guess!  I think I was also shocked that I got through it.  I still don't have much confidence in myself about recovery.  That is something I need to work on.  It's just that I have never been able to stay clean, and I want to so bad.

Oh well, now I know!!! : )  I'll be ok.  I'm not by myself, so that will be a good thing.  I'm trying not to dwell on it, but DANG!  It was rough!

Thanks for checking on me everybody!! : )  

[worried878]

cravings really suk!
Part of mental wd i guess...but can make things tough 4 sure
I used to try the 3 Ms...Medhelp...Meetings...and Moving

Posting here helps..there is also a great article in the health pages on cravings...

Get up and walk, clean out a drawer, just Move...most cravings pass in 15 min or less if we do not dwell on them

Meetings...always help..aftercare is the most important part of staying clean for most...and addicts to to avoid it like the plague

good luck to u

[gizzy32]

How are you today trama? Hope those cravings passed. Your strong and you did great by posting and reaching out. Congrats on your clean time:)

[vicki595]

Hey!!  Get up!!    How are you feeling??    I was writing this long message to you last night when POOF! no MH !!    

I've got work to do here (so I'm up so early) and will be around at your beck and call.

xo

[NoMore81410]

Hey Hon! Today is a new day and I am praying for you! My cravings hit me on Friday's and sometimes do not leave until Sunday Morning because that's when I would kick my pills up a notch. I have been struggling with that for the past 2 weeks but Thank God I have not used! The demons in our heads know our weakness and they will prey on it until you defeat them or cave in. I know what you mean about stress and even though we think we can handle it our body plainly shows we can't. We have to keep our armor on daily and make sure we suit up every morning.
Please keep us posted on how you are doing!