So I went to doctor today, he knows my problem completley and he said that with my conditiona and as painful as it is and that im trying to get bk to work and get on with life that cutting me off may send me over the roof, so I'm tired from lack of sleep from worry about today, work was short but great got 8 hr shifts now all week, so thats positive ....On the other hand he told me to give them to someone I trust and only try to take min dose, however on days where I swell he said I'm allowed to take 2 extras.I dunno what to do, not only do I want them for pain but what is happening is my husband who seemed so supportive in the begining is saying my pills are more important then his family but ya know what I'm sick of it, cause his F in weed is more important and at least I have a F in reason , not that I ever wanted to get wired or abuse them thats not how it all started as many know, it is not anyones INTENTIONS TO DO THAT!!!! I didnt ask for this painful lupus either and everyone has different experiences with it, I however am not having a good patch right now, and it makes it really diffulcult to live with a F in HYPROCRITE, at least I got the Balls to stand up and talk , really picks my *** when people that live in glass houses, and cast stones, clean up your own back yard before you start on mine, so needless to say, im lost, confused but I AINT GIVING UP AND IF HE LEAVES ME SO BE IT, I WONT TAKE ANYMORE OF IT.....................