I have been on the suboxone for a few weeks. I was told last week I could go back on the Norco due to the severe pain I was in. Somedays the pain is so bad I just cry and cry, because no matter what I do it won't get better. I know I have more surgeries ahead of me to finish fixing the problem. Anyway the Suboxone Dr said it was ok. I filled the script and I did take a few. I was so overwhelmed with guilt I went right back on the suboxone and gave the bottle to my boyfriend to keep me away from it. I am so confused, I know I will abuse them unless I am watched like a freakin 2 yr old, but somedays it is so painful. That is problem #1. Problem 2 is keepin me up just as much if not more than #1. I went to the suboxone Dr the first 3 visits and visit 1 and 2 felt VERY wrong with the way he examined me. But I know some Drs are a bit more "touchy" than others and was not too sure what to think of the way he checked my lungs and "chest". I had NEVER ever had a Dr exam me like that. When I went back the 3rd time things became very clear on his exam of me. I was firm after I realized what the heck he was doing. My problem is that I have no other options where I live, there is no other Drs around that can write for Suboxone. I know this is so bizarre and I am even more confused and upset over it all. To top things off after I top my boyfriend what had happened we looked him up online and he was charged in the 80's and again in the 90's with sexual abuse. Oh, I really don't know what to do. To look at the surface it looks like an easy answer, but think about it before you respond and put yourself in my shoes. But god that Dr gives me the heebee geebees. Thanks guys for reading this. And you are all so great
Christy