I think my days of getting along on norco are over

[devisatedandscared]

I'm so scared, im a single mom of 2 children a professional in the medical field. Today i attempted to get a prescription filled with a forged rx from my work. As I was waiting the said they needed to verify with the doctor. I got up and left. Since then my job called me...im havent called back yet.

The withdrawal is already setting in and this feeling is exactly why I did what I did.

Is my life over? When will I be arrested. I have no criminal record at all. I'm afraid I'm going to lose custody of my children.

[clean_in_ks]

"At times I really just wanted to give up, on everything. And today I'm able to see that as being no option..."

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Congrats on Day 13!!  You're doing good....in spite of all the crises that have come about in your life......

If you have any desire to learn more about addiction....I have a great web site I spent a lot of time on myself and a good video to watch.  I'll be happy to share them with you.

After you get settle in at your Mom's.....then you can check out some aftercare.....new home, new habits, new ways of thinking.  I'm rootin for ya!

[devisatedandscared]

Yay for day 13. I was just reading back on some of these posts, and I can see that I have came along way, both physically and emotionally. Don't get me wrong I'm still devastated and scared. I haven't truly faced what I will be in the next couple of weeks. Moving home with my mother....its going to be horrendous. But I now know that I have a serious problem...being an addict. God that still sounds weird to me...but I will battle for my life and someday it will become recognizable to what it was before those little pills came into it. I'm so thankful to all of you that have been keeping me close to your heart. At times I really just wanted to give up, on everything. And today I'm able to see that as being no option....so thank you everyone for your continued support..now to get off the couch today and fight for my energy ;)

[Poisonpills3247]

Your story has broken my heart!  But like everyone has said:  LET THIS BE YOUR ROCK BOTTOM!! I use that choice of wording because as hard as it is to believe.... It CAN get worse. This from a divorced 46 yr old who lost her kids, her husband, her job, went through bankruptcy, was diagnosed with narcolepsy and now lives with her mom. That is my life. Those pills are your biggest enemy. Always remember that. Meetings, meetings,meetings!!!  I promise you will feel better soon.better physically more soon than emotionally but girl you can do this. You remind me of myself. I look like the president of the PTA.  Doesn't matter. We get just as addicted as the homeless. We are born addicts. Always will be addicts. You hang in. I'm cheering for you. I'm clean (norco 20 to 25 daily) for two years now. I look forward to hearing your progress. :)

[jifmoc]

Hey, I think what is meant by not cancelling is that it is still possibly available. I can tell you from my own experience, that the agony of detox fades and our addict brains kick in. Despite the possible negative consequences, we will glamorize pills (that the definition of addiction, btw.) If there is a possibility to get that script, in a weak moment, you could get it. There is no way I could have even a possible script in the pharmacy. I've had lots of bad days and bad moments,( despite feeling physically fine and working a program), that I have wanted pills desperately. No, you don't wanna be more stressed, and these are only suggestions based on experience.

Congrats on day 12!

[devisatedandscared]

If I don't pick up the rx...or if I call to cancel, I'm not seeing the difference? Like everyone here has said, its most likely not there anyways. I'm trying to avoid any problems...as its at my local pharmacy in a town of 3500 people...i just don't need any more stress...it will sit there...i haven't went thru all the hell that I have all on my own with nobody to help me to go back now!

[clean_in_ks]

Asking again:  is there some reason after ALL you've been thru with losing your job and the fraud that you are unwilling to cancel the script?