Stopped vicodin cold turkey...hopin for the best

[determined_2_break_free]

no question really...just want to talk w/people who understand what i'm going thru...i've been taking vicodin for about a year now, 2 pills EVERY 4 hours, EVERY DAY...at first it was all about the buzz of course, which quickly became non-existant, so then i had no choice but to take them or i would suffer physically...i became a slave to vicodin...if only i had known the cost of that buzz that started out to be so appealing...well, everything just clicked inside my head yesterday...i knew that i had to stop...cold turkey...i had to let go of this addiction...and for the most important person in the world...my 11 month old son...it wasn't ME that suffered the most from this...it was HIM...i haven't been the mother that i should be...the first thing that i usually think about when i wake up is VICODIN...when i should be thinking about my son whos in the next room laying alone until 11 or 12 in the afternoon...believe me, i know that is disturbing, and everytime i think about what i've put him thru all this time i just feeling like dying, like i deserve to be dead....i love my son more than my own life...i would die for him...and that's why i know i can kick this habit for him only...he's my strength...i know i need to figure out all the reasons why i started using in the first place...and sort thru them...so i can fully recover...i need to find a way to deal...without opiates...and i'm praying i can do this cold turkey and fully recover...but i am SO terrified of the withdrawals that are yet to come...this is going on day 2 for me...i know it's gonna get even harder...i just pray i have the strength in my body & mind to get thru this...when i get where i need to be, i will thank the lord & my son...my baby will finally have his mommy back...i can't wait...i'm ready

[road2recovery]

congrats...I am proud of you.....my little one feels the same way..She is only 7 but tells me when i read a book to her now i am not skipping pages...LOL they notice everything,,,BUT that is a good thing, and makes us realize what we need to do
good luck
r2r

[determined_2_break_free]

i did alright today, after getting thru the first-waking-up withdrawal...some parts of the day were worse than others...i feel so much better though mentally...i feel like i'm finally getting my life back and my son is gettin his mommy back

[GoingToMakeIt]

Hang in there. you can do this! btw I like your screen name. i too was hooked on Vicodin. I also quit c/t. I know you can kick this thing. Keep your eye on the prize of being clean. Take hot baths with 1-2 cups of Epsom salts. It helps the muscles.

Take good care of yourself. keep posting. It helps.

[determined_2_break_free]

thank you so much for your kindness and support. when i read your reply it really encouraged me even more......it really makes a difference to have other people to talk to that know what i'm going thru...i'm glad you're here too and i hope that we can become friends...i will definitely keep you updated

whenever i first wake up, the withdrawals are the worst...i feel like dying, and i just wanna lay on the couch and not move...i feel dizzy, sweaty +  chills, headache, body aches, etc...but i fight it with all i've got...for my son...i think about how much he needs me and i get motivated...i cut out almost all the pop i've been drinking and started drinking lots of water and powerade and even started eating healthier...when i'm able to eat...doing all that seems to help a little...i try to take my mind off it to but it just hurts so bad at times...i never heard of the thomas recipe...but if it helps i will definitely try it...hope to hear from ya                          

[sickcookie]

You should be very proud of yourself for making the first steps in stopping ,you have gone 2 days It is a great beginning to making a better life for you and your beautiful son.I know you love him deeply from your post now it is time to change things so the memmories will be happy and healthy and not guilt ridden.You have so many wonderful years ahead if you do this now.We have a choice we just have to want it bad enough.Today is day 12 for me CT and it was not awful but I guess I am lucky.Take the vitamans in Thomas Recipe ,I also kept reading all the posts it helps alot.There are so many of us struggling and such caring people here it makes you not feel so alone.Can anyone take the baby for a few days,could you tell your mom you have the flu?Give yourself and your son a big hug ,you can do this .I AM GLAD YOUR HERE

[Imtired]

how are you doing today?  You and your son are so worth going through with this.  He does need his mommy.  Mine are grown now, but I feel as though the past couple of years, I've not only watched them with a foggy haze, but I was starting to forget alot of things.  You don't want to forget your baby growing up.  This is some of the best times when they are little. And they need you more than ever!  Cuddle with him everytime you think of taking a pill. I so wish I could still cuddle those babies!  But I have grandkids to look forward to!  (no anytime soon please lol).

[GoingToMakeIt]

There are some things that would help you. Look at my journals. (click my name) find the Thomas recipe and see if that would help. You can do this!.
Welcome to the forum. Keep posting, it will help.