Im going through this now but i got addicted to injecting it intravenously, the damage it has done to my veins and the surrounding tissue worries me. i went to the er a couple days after since it hadnt improved much and still hurt and they didnt even test me to see if i had a deeper infection happening and the antibiotic the gave me i started throwing up severely after, i was too sick of everything to go back and they cant give medical advice over the phone so im just hoping it will heal on its own/i dont have any deep infection going on. its super hard, im really young too just turned 21, it sucks that i repeated the behavior so much when it caused me so much pain and the high was only enjoyable w the "rush" id get from it, this time i really think ill never inject that again, i genuinely want to cry, im a "recovering" iv&heroin addict for a year++and ive damaged all my veins so bady with buproprion:( the injection site still hurts is warm and red/bruised and inflammed, this has been really hard for me and i feel so guilty
Oh my, that has to be hard on your nostrils. Just sayin.
You need to get help with this issue immediately. If you inquire a serotonin overload it's going to be bad. I watched my son go into a seizure because of a Serotonin Overload. Please please get help with this issue fast. This is not going to end well at all. I'm sure you know that. Not to mention what it's doing to your nose, your body and brain. When my son had his seizure he was actually red-flagged at the hospital for abusing his medications. And that's what the doctor called it, A Serotonin Overload. Very dangerous. You can die from this.
Wishing you the best of health and good luck. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
Please get help or you may not be here for 2019, not to scare you, I'm just being honest.
Where to start? OK. First, THIS op's stream of highedness, ridiculously and almost comically accurate post is why "traditional" 12-step, group and or sponsor/sponsee modalities need to be seriously questioned and re-thought.
I have abused most abusable substances as well as several of my own creation. My "DOC" was opiates. So much so that I was able to parlay the addiction into 20+ in patient rehab stints and 7 felonies in just five years. What finally stopped the train?? A sponsor who stopped sponsoring me by saying, "Brother, I believe "we" shouldn't shoot our own. I love you, brother" and a criminal courts judge who called out my chronic AA sign in sheet forgeries by saying, "Have you ever thought about finding a recovery program that actually works for YOU?".
That one question changed everything for me. I never considered that I would ever have "honest" recovery because I was one of the only people I knew who simply DID NOT respond to Bill's solution.
I began looking at any option for recovery. I stopped both good-lookin glorifying and vilifying the 12 steps and instead began to include my own experiences as they naturally fit into everyday life (i.e. outside the rooms). If that meant loudly declaring to a Friday night rushed kitchen manager who screamed at me, "NONE OF OUR 30 ******* RESTAURANTS EVEN HAVE A TABLE 1201!" to never trust my table numbers because my huge former drug abuse erased most of my short term memory, so be it. The openness allowed anyone within ear shot into my recovery recipe. A funny thing occurrs when non-addicts learn about addict behavior.... They get really good at calling addicts on their addict-prood addict behavior.
Somehow one of these non-addict observers said, " You'll probably always have this ****** up behavior pattern, but why don't you try to find out exactly what hole these opiates are filling for you and try to close the hole?".
Voila!! What that hole was and how I try to keep it filled is mine and a greater hands' - my exact solution isn't going to fix your hole. But, my experience my help you find your own unique way.
I say all this to say, The OP's post could have been about anything in the world OP uses to block him or her ever acknowledging the hole exists or that it can possibly be filled alot more reliably than a lifetime a counted days, weeks, months and ******* years in someone's other ******* birthday story. Or, it could only be about buproprion snorting and I'm just another Bill denier. But..... it could be both.
I personally think you're just pulling peoples chain. I don't believe for one minute you're snorting Wellbutrin. really? No way move on down the road please.
That's crazy I found this post cause right now I feel crazy. I just snorted 3 150mg wellbutrin then like 20 mins later I did it again. Then 15 mins after that I did it again. Felt great after the third time cause my runny nose stopped. I was super productive for a few minutes. Then the crazy idea that I should do another 450mgs. So I did. Then after that I did 300mgs. And now I feel stuck anxious and sweaty. I'm guessing the only reason I'm not having a seizure is because of the cloazapam (kolonapin). But I only got a tiny bit of euphoria. But I notice that Every time I get it filled I abuse it in some way. Either IV it or snort it. IV is a real waste tho. Only some of the pill is water souable and it gives u the same feeling as snorting it. Just without the stuffy nose and sneezing. It's the strangest addiction I have ever found myself in the loop in. So I can relate to u brother. But my friends told me to tell my doc the truth with it and that's what I'm going to do. But I've notice people with past addictions abuse this alot so maybe they should stop prescribing it all together to known addicts. Before I was ever prescribed it myself we used to take one 150mg and divide it into thirds. And snort that. But that was in jail and I'm sure it's what introduced me to it. But never really developed a problem with it till 8 years later when I got it prescribed for myself. And almost immediately went back to snorting it. Like rn I'm on a total of 2100mgs all snorted over a 2 hour span. The worst part is the anxiety. Just like a tweak binge. But I'm sure I'm doing serious damage to my brain rn. I don't recommended ever doing this much and if u do. Make sure u have 911 ready to call in case u seize out. Like literally if I didn't have the kolonopin I would be going thru a nightmare at the moment. Sad thing too is I know I need help. It's just knowing and taking action to fix it are two separate things. Love you hope everything gets better for u and u beat this. And I welcome any advice people are willing to give. I'm all ears.
I'm addicted to crushing and snorting my Buproprion. Yeah, it's an “upper,” or, a stimulant. It isn't quite as intense as coke, but the high lasts longer and the comedown is easier. Just... DON'T start if you haven't started!!! Please!
I'm surprised that there isn't any actual professional medical or social work help in this particular thread. medhelp.com? help! I wish that a professional would chime in and give us a few pointers or first steps to take for quitting...
Like, okay, obviously: the first step is probably the ER, detox, and then inpatient treatment. My problem is: I AM in treatment. (Actually, to be clear, I graduated from inpatient and now live in transitional housing.)
Anyway...So, my doctor took me off of Buproprion 300 mg and didn't taper me off. He said it shouldn't be a problem and that I wouldn't have withdrawls because Buproprion isn't a physically addictive substance. (Cough, BULL ****, in my humble opinion. And, seriously? Since when do doctors not taper patients off of high doses on antidepressants?) And so, that left me on my own to take it upon myself to try to taper myself off on my own (because it just felt like the right thing to do). I did well at first. I split the pills in half and snorted half a day. Then I split them into quarters, but that's where the problem was. It wasn't enough and it wasn't comfortable. I needed to feel more awake and alive. So I used a little bit more... which turned into a little bit more than that.. (see, THERE'S the addict behavior, RIGHT THERE – Taking more than necessary/prescribed/planned. I saw the relapse coming a million miles away.) those few little lines from this morning turned into fat lines on the bottom edge of my laptop's keyboard...which leads me to where I am now... It's 4:37 AM. (Yeah... AM.) I've been wired (and doing lines) all night. I don't know how to stop myself. (and now I'm screwed because I'm just about out of my pills and I'm going to crash off of them again in about 3 days... sigghhh.) Yeah, the whole tapering myself off on my own thing went over well. ...not. God help me, it is so hard not to binge! Like, I don't think that there's anything else in the world that is harder to do than to overcome addiction and stay sober for the rest of your life. (That's the goal. I want to be that old lady at Cocaine Anonymous picking up her 28 year sobriety chip.)
I digress. Now, I'm panicked. I've gone through five pills in the last 5 or so hours and I've got tremors and my chest feels heavy... I think I need to get my butt over to the ER or at least UrgentCare, like, right the f**k now. I don't think that my life is on the line... I mean, okay. So, once upon a time, I overdosed on coke. How I'm feeling now is about how I felt once I had gotten about halfway through my 3.5g stash (I finished all but like, a half a gram before I'd overdosed.) So I think I'm okay. I reeeeeally hoping that I can just come down from this and not die or have to go to the ER at all. (I f*kin hate the ER.)
So here's my personal dilemma... I'm like a month away from graduating from my rehab program. I play the perfect picture of recovery role in group therapy and individual therapy (of course I talk about other sh*t I'm dealing with) and I just keep my little secret all to myself. Nobody knows, nobody needs to know. I run to the bathroom between group therapy sessions, get high, and nobody knows. In fact, I get compliments on my attitude and mood. (Go figure.)
Here I am, perfect shining example of sobriety girl with 10 months sober, just over 300 days clean (from coke, meth and alcohol!) over here needs medical attention, but If I call a life coach to come and get me and take me to get said medical attention (I don't have a car, and the busses don't run at this time of night), I'd be outing my perfect little secret, and I might be kicked out of the program, which means dire consequences. Like, losing my family and living on the street consequences. (And I'm not exaggerating. I've asked all of my parents what they would do if I left this program and they all said that they'd disown me.) Not to mention, I'd lose my pride and my reputation. I'd hate to disappoint my family, my darling little younger siblings who know that their sister is an addict but love me anyway... and all of the girls and all of the staff in this program, as well as ALL of mom's facebook friends (Smh, she likes to share quite a bit about my recovery online. But maybe it might be embarrassing to say that her kid is now on the streets, so I wouldn't have to worry about disappointing like 2k people.)
Ugh. Why would I even care if like, 2k people that I don't even really know or remember are disappointed in me? (Ugh. Because it would make my mom upset. D***nit.)
So here I sit, in my bed, trying to come down, still looking at my last pill, googling stuff like seratonin syndrome, trying to figure out if my heart is about to explode! Breathing, aligning my chakras and focusing on my heart chakra... also, wondering if my lymph nodes and sinuses are ever going to heal... trying to figure out why my nose f*kng whistles when I breathe... Oh, God help me, it's hilarious, but so horrible... I think I may have a deviated septum... Wondering how to spend the rest of my awake time tonight before I go to group therapy and act like everything is okay...looking at my last pill (longingly) and praying to find help online.
Funny thing is, I'm dating a therapist. I could tell him all of this and he could help me, but I don't want him to know that I've relapsed so terribly. I don't want him to tell me that it would be a good idea to come clean with my (actual) therapist about my relapse. And I don't want to disappoint him, either. (also, I'd really rather not have him play the therapist card on me.)
I feel scared, upset, pissed off at myself, worried, nervous, and terrified...
Looks like I not only need medical help, but therapy. Just, like, Validation. Do any of you get me? Like, do you understand what I'm going through here? Are my feelings valid?
This was a really good outlet for me. I've come down quite a bit. I feel quite a bit better. It's now 5:42 AM, and I've realized that typing kept me from using for about an hour! I think I'll start keeping a typed journal.
I'd love feedback from anyone who actually took the time to read this. If you read it, thank you for caring. :) Maybe we can start a support group based on our addiction to using this stuff.
I've had Bupropion subscribed for 2 years, and have at times snorted it.
Snorting Bupropion sucks, but does give a little high, but the down-sides overweigh the ups. I look at it as a last resort.
If you are snorting Bupropion on daily basis I advise you to get off it.
You risk serotonin syndrome, which is very serious.
forget the effects... that **** burn BAD to the point where im in tears and it hurts real bad... i felt the high but it was a BAD high due to all the pain. i have experience in snorting cocke and special K but this **** is on some next level ****... i will never try it again... HUGE mistake..
I know someone that snorts wellbutrin and got me doing it and I hate it so I know what you are going through.Hope thing's work out for you.
It's weird- I think the "act" of snorting something is similar to an oral fixation, or what I often of as a need to consume something to improve how I feel. When I quit doing coke 6 or 7 years ago, snorting Wellbutrin helped calm my cravings and soothe me. I was taking it orally already, so snorting it in addition to my regular dosages had me hallucinating and talking incessantly and unable to sleep or feel normal. So I quit taking it orally and have been hiding this quiet addiction for years.
yes. i too am addicted to snorting Bupropion. im a former Meth Addict and have been off meth for a year now, my doctor has been prescribing my wellbutrin for 6 months, i found out that you can snort it for mild stimulant effects but for the past few months I have become very addicted to to it and it is a horrible thing to be hooked on when you have an addictive personality like I do. its a compulsive, daily thing for me, snortinhttp://www.medhelp.org/posts/Addiction-Substance-Abuse/Im--addicted-badly-to-snorting-wellbutrin-sr-and-cant-stop/show/1184325#g
this stuff. it is destroying my sinuses and my nose constantly needs nasal spray. yet I cant leave it alone -- I AM NOT EVEN SURE IF THE FEELING I GET FROM IT IS TECHNICALLY A "HIGH" that is the worst part. When I was using methamphetamine, I was definately sure I was getting high. I'm embarrassed about this addiction I have. its pointless but i cant stop
And you took it while in prison??????????????????
i learned it in prison and yes it does give you a high much like cocaine and or speed also mAkes me horny...i really want to **** on it
It isn't directed at either...I reported the post and it has been removed.
I also don't think she meant anything negative by her question. I am also curious as to why someone would snort a antidepressant. It doesn't mean I'm wanting to know, so I can get high. Knowledge is power, so lets hear about it. I'm also wondering if she takes wellbutrin by mouth?
I may be out of line here but I don't really think that daisy699 meant any harm by her question. I too was curious and felt the same that maybe it was drug behavior that was the reason. I have read about addicts using needles with just water because the addiction to the needle was just as bad as the drug they used before. I think in understanding all aspects of our addictions it helps us that much more in our recovery. The support here is always wonderful and your reply just caught me off guard. Again, no disrespect intended.
That is not constructive advice. Actually it is not advice at all. This forum is somewhere people come to get help, not to listen to how good drugs make you feel. Please have some respect.
Isn't that an antidepressant??? I myself have not had any experience w/ this nor do I remember reading anything similiar bu ther are nurses that post here often and maybe can give you some advice?? If you don't mind me askind why is it u do this?? Do u feel an affect from it or have you had previous addictions w/ drugs you sniff and may be just using "drug behavior"? I'm just very curious, good luck in trying to stop as I'm sure it's horrible for your nasal passage..