DAY 10

[comfortquinn]

I GOT 5 AND 1/2 HOURS SLEEP SO FAR.  I DON'T HAVE TO BE AT WORK UNTIL 12PM TODAY!  I'VE BEEN HAVING TO BE THERE AT 6AM AND THAT WAS SO MUCH STRESS FOR ME.  I ASKED MY BOSS IF SHE COULD CHANGE MY HOURS PERMANENTLY TO 12PM AND I AM PRETTY SURE SHE'S GONNA DO IT.  SHE WAS A BIT STRESSED TOO WHEN I TALKED TO HER.  I AM ALMOST 100% THAT SHE'LL CHANGE ME TO LATER HOURS.  
I apologize if it seemed like I was yelling up their with my CAPS.  I forgot to turn it off.  Anywho!  

I feel a little anxious right now at 6:36 am, but I know I have a chance to get more sleep before I go to work and I feel like I can get myself to relax.  I was thinking, even if I could go to work at 9, I would be good!!!

I am just ranting here!  

I am getting myself to be positive!!!  I will go for a walk this morning before work if I don't fall back to sleep.

10 days!  WOW!!!  Also, I noticed yesterday, while I was at work, I wasn't sweating at all!!!  My back and feet and knees were killing me, but pain isn't the worst thing in the world!!!

Hope you all do something to get yourselves feeling good about what you are doing and who you are!!!!  We just have to love ourselves enough to push through!!!

Thank you to everyone that is helping me!!!  

[laurel453]

I have been reading your posts and you are doing very well...your mind being positive although at times hard to achieve is the best tool, another good thing is that you are ready to make changes ... way to go ! :)

[Innerstrength67]

Your a rockstar! This is not easy but doable and your strength is showing everyone here that we can overcome addiction.
Posting instead of popping is my new motto!!!!

[gnarly_1]

HEY GIRL good to see you post and I just want to say your attitude ROCKS this will do more fore your recovery then anything else I canont say enough about a positive attitude wile going threw this it something you can do in spite of how you feel or what kind of day your having ......you be suprized on ho little sleep the body actually needs and you will sleep when you need it the body just shuts down .....I have been following your story from the beginning
you have done well and will continue to do so your strong and your resolove to beat this thing is high you got what it takes to make it to the winners circle
keep pushing forward start to hit a few meetings it will help with the mind screw but like I said b/4 your going to be on of the ones that makes it you caan take that to the bank......take time to pray each day Jesus has much grace to give and his devine power will help you along when your weak I know it made a huge difference in me getting well good luck and God bless......Gnarly  

[comfortquinn]

I am getting notified of the replies to my post a little late.  Today is day 17!  I want to thank you for your words.  I hope you are well and thank's for the advice about praying!  I do meditations and when I do them I include Jesus and the creation that His Father has mad for us to live in.  I give so much love to everything that is alive and know in every person's heart there is good!  That gets me through this!!!  God Bless you too!!!  My mind is settling and you are right about meetings.  I just have to get going with that and get in the habit of going.  I remember how good I felt after leaving a meeting a few times and I would even yell in the car about how cool it was!  You know, when no one could hear!!! Well, have a blessed day!!!