In a deep pit of depression and angst

[anon122272]

Okay, it started with pot when I was 16...I've done many different things - not heavily, but enough that i can feel guilty that i've probably caused my health problems. and probably have a problem (not addiction) with coke at this point...i've probably destroyed my brain - i had a nervous breakdown a year and a half ago and now have schizophrenic symptoms...been diagnosed with add...chronic depression...i'm always tired...i can't hold down a job, and i used to be pretty smart...i'm aging and my looks are fading so i'm very self conscious...i'm so depressed and just wish that i could tell someone the whole truth about my life...i want to trust a psychologist, but don't know if i can.  i wonder what a normal life would be like.  wish that i could have a few days of happiness...Maybe someone can just say something to me?  I don't even know what, something to help the tiniest bit?

[gizzy32]

I did 7 grams the last relapse in less then a day so don't call the authorities on me:) You don't need this drug in your life. You can also send me a message if you dont want to post in public. Good luck

[gizzy32]

I am glad your quitting. I did a lot of coke so don't worry, i promise this is safe. Coke caused me to be very paranoid and made me depressed so I would just use more. You are gonna need some help ok. This is a good safe place to come to and talk. It helped me beat a 5 year nasty coke habit that almost killed me.

[anon122272]

I used about 1.5 grams a week...on the weekends...i'm quitting...now i'm scared that you'll call authorities...this is safe, right?

[Danny750]

Hi. You've come to the right place. I came here on Sunday for the first time and have had enormous support. I think you probably need to trust someone and talk if you're depressed. It's not good to go through life holding all in and self destructing. Next the obvious is get rid of the coke. You really need to get off of that either quitting yourself or going somewhere for help but that should be a priority.

[gizzy32]

I just read your last post about your friend having a runny nose and I had responded to that one too. I want to ask you one question about the coke and need you to be honest so I can try to help you. How often and how much are you using? I don't know about the other things your going through, but it sounds like a counsellor would do you a lot of good. How long have you been using coke and how much?