In memory of IBK~

[dominosarah]

This is one of the hardest things i have ever had to do.  We found out this morning that IBK  passed away of a massive heart attack on Sunday Aug.2nd.  We dont know anymore details at this point.  I loved this woman with all my heart as did many others.  We will all feel her absence on this forum but she will be with everyone of us in spirit.  She lived hard and worked her recovery even harder.  Each and everyone of us was important to her and she wanted  all of us to experience sobriety.  I really am at a loss here so will close for now.

RIP my beautiful friend~

[dominosarah]

I can still remember her laugh and telling me what a stubborn @#$%^& i was!!  I was so blessed to have her wisdom and her tough love.  I loved that woman and i miss her~

[VICourageous]

I can not even look or hear the football without thinking of her also!!!  I tell me Hub that she is so very missed around here and is so loved.

My she be smiling down at us all!!!!

[dominosarah]

It still doesnt seem real~

[10356]

love you Bonnie.. It will be awhile that peps will be asking about you..

[Jerry198]

When I first found this site IBK seemed like she had lived through many addictions and had all the answers and could provide them in a no non-sense fashion , I have found that many of the big names on this site comment like she did.  she helped many lost souls including me may she find the rest she deserves and may we carry on the fight until our time is up.

[house2]

haven't been here for awhile ,just learned of this.I got some tears too IBK kicked my butt when I needed it,gave it to ya straight and loved ya the whole time.Always felt she had come back from a lot but never went back,was a awesome inspiration.God bless you IBK for all you have done for others!!

[Jade59]

Bonnie was such a fixture here.  This is still so hard to believe...

[10356]

I have peps still asking for Bonnie so I'm moving this up for the weekend..

[bama88]

Rest in peace,  I will miss you so much, I just can't believe she's gone,,,
Only the good die young.  I really believe that.  Bonnie was such a great wonderful woman.  She would hold your hand, give a hug, and give a swift kick in the butt when needed.  All with LOVE.  She will be missed. She was loved by all she touched so many.

When I see a shooting star I will say a prayer.  

[Junip]

Oh dear God, what an incredibly difficult loss. IBK was so supportive to everyone, including me, and I have tears streaming down reading this. May she rest in peace and receive the reward she so deserves for her service to life and this community. My condolences to her long time friends and family here and in the outside world.

[10356]

I'm still shocked when I see this.. miss you IBK things just will not be the same without you.. I hope you are sitting in the great outdoors listening to the best tunes up there ! love with more love

[Heather8448]

"we don't get to chat much but I wanted to tell you how proud I am of you and your recovery. "
one of our last conversations before I relapsed
she will be missed dearly

[Life360_Dave]

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IBKleen Blank  
Sep 09, 2012
"WOW

I wasn't around yesterday when my dear friend started this post and wasn't alerted to it until this morning. I celebrated last night at a candlelight meeting that was focused on those who have not found recovery and lost their lives. It was a very moving to listen to everyone and I was honored to celebrate there.

I don't know how to thank you all for your beautiful words. I feel like Sally Field at the Oscars and I am not good at this. I have been criticized many, many times for my style of help so this is new for me.

Each and every one of you is special to me and each of you keep me clean. You are all part of my recovery no matter how much time you have. The person with one day clean and the person with ten years clean helps me the same way. I am grateful to you all and for this community.

I stick around here because I was taught early one that you have to give it away to keep it. The people I surrounded myself with early in recovery gave themselves freely to help me to stay clean. I try and do that here every chance I get. And if I have helped just one person in the past five years then it was all worth it.

Thanks again guys. I think I will go finish crying now."


The above is a reply from Bonnie back in 2012. She will be missed for sure.
Dave

[motye51]

It's amamzing to look at all of the names of people that I came to love early in my recovery.....some that are still on here fighting (which IBKleen would've loved) and some are gone.  

[Dee1956]

It's been two years since I read that Bonnie had died. I wish I had known her.

[jugglin]

She was amazing.  No BS. She was there for anybody who needed and wanted help....those who wanted it enough to work for it. Thank you, Dee, for honoring her memory. <3

[littlebit667]

I just heard about her death and am so very sad for all of us.  I truly liked her and although I did not have a close relationship with her like some of you..I read and trusted her words.

[dominosarah]

You are loved to my friend~  I am really glad to see you here.  This will take some time to process but she is present, not in body form anymore but in spirit~

[Pat1956100]

I was able to read through this thread today and I want to send love to all of my friends here who were hurt so deeply by this.  You know who you are.
Thanks to all of you for being here and helping me and so many other people.
We never know how much we help but this thread is proof of how many lives Bonnie touched and how many she helped.
I love you all.

Hugs
Pat

[Pat1956100]

Here's one of her last messages to me

I miss you Pat and worry about you. I think coming on and helping people will help you. Come on Pat. I will wait for you.

Love and Hugs...Bonnie

[Pat1956100]

I'm just so sad.

[Pat1956100]

I just found out and my chest hurts so bad even though the tears are falling.
Bonnie never gave up on me and would PM me and tell me she was worried about me.  She truly cared and I felt honoured that she loved me.  
I can't believe it's been so long since I checked in.  I wanted to check the football pool because I knew there would be so many familiar faces there.
I'm just so, so sad.  She was a great lady.  She wanted me to post on the forum again.  I will try to soon.
I love you Bonnie and thank you so much for all of your words of wisdom and for loving me, no matter what.

Hugs
Pat

[10356]

Happy Birthday IBK I hope you are rockin it old school !! Love ya !

[quitinoxys]

I am at a loss for words, I haven't been around for a while and this news really makes my heart sad. IBK has helped me through a lot of bad times and NEVER put up with my excuses. She made me realize that I was worth more than my addictive self. She made me see the greatness in myself and never sugar coated anything. Yes she had her tough side but that came from love, her compassionate side far outweighed the toughness. When I was in severe pain one night early in my recover she PM with me thru the night to help me get through the night without pain meds. I will miss her and her kind words. RIP IBK my friend.

Love & Peace---Rick

[vicki595]

It's been one month and Bonnie's loss is still so acute. I think of her several times each day because something always triggers a memory; be it a song, a kitty, an event...a joke meant for mature audiences... haha     Thoughts of her beat through my days like a heart.  And I know I'm not alone...