Substance abuse and pregnant

[tcprice81]

Hi I'm not on here to be judged but looking for support and answer yes my dr is aware that I'm using a d is trying to help me yes I reslize my child can be taken away I don't need idiocy I need support I got clean after 6 months of being pregnant turned away by so many Drs and clinics for treatment I either had to be medically cleared to start rehab or the ob didn't want to help they just judged me. I am an addict have been for many years I went 9 years clean and relapsed due to my mental issues and life's trials I was using before I even knew I was pregnant and when I found out at the time I didn't know then I got scared I was told if I just stop if kill the baby do then I decided to try and get help couldn't I've went through hell and gave up. I now have a dr helping me baby's in very good health I got lucky there got clean for 3 weeks and just relapsed cause I was told that I would lose my child anyway by a nurse at a hospital. I'm struggling here to keep my daughter and get clean again please help me. I've tried NA but I live in az they aren't very welcoming and mostly a joke now I'm bedridden and lost hopeless and severly depressed. I'm living with my family and they are addicts all around me all the time but I javd no where else to go I have no support and mental disabled can't work. I need help I need to know where to start I'm 7 months pregnant now and literally hate myself so bad if rather die than live like this another day regretting my choices and reality is a ***** so please if you have a heart at all help a mom to be better her life for my child she is what this is about she needs a mommy I am willing to do anything to fix this and be her mommy clean pay for my consequences and care for her every need is it to late for me?

[dominosarah]

You need to talk with your OB and tell him about your last relapse.  They should be able to get you involved in some counseling.  If CPS is involved after the baby is born then so be it.  They will make sure things are going good for both baby and you but you have to be totally honest about everything.  They dont want to come in and take a baby away if they see positive changes in the momma.  This isnt hopeless, you can get thru this storm~

[IBKleen]

Hi hun, this is a place where you will not get judged. You know that..you have been here for a while and I see that you were in the same situation in 2013? Is that child with you today? If so, what was the process that you had to go through then? It will most likely be the same that is why I mention it.

I like the advise from the above poster..try to find an alternative. AA may be your ticket to talk with people who understand. And a YES on counseling. You need to deal with life's issues without the use of drugs. There is always hope...ALWAYS...but you will have to do the footwork.

In the meantime, stick around here and talk with us. There is always someone here to help you.

Sending prayers...

[NeverAgain127]

It's never too late for anyone as long as they are breathing.

You have a lot of stuff going on right now.  It sounds like your life situation isn't great,but you have to find resources someplace.  Can you try to go to AA and see if they are more friendly?  And to be honest, N/A just needs to keep you sober...if they are less than 100% warm and fuzzy, you may have to accept that.

I feel for you honey.   Is there a priest, minister, or anyone you can go to for counseling?  You must tell your doctor everything that is going on...and if you care about your unborn baby, I know you will.

Good luck sweetie..sending prayers your way...