Accountability

[VicAddict26]

Every other time i have tried to give up these drugs,, it's always been a battle within and it always won.. i think i've figured out one of the reasons my past efforts were not successful,,, Accountability, nobody ever knew the battle i was fighting and nobody ever knew the hell i was going through, this time i have reached out and posted and made a few friends that it would break my heart to ever have to tell them that i was relapsing,, I guess that is why they say you should have a sponsor so that you have someone you have to answer to,, it sure gives me strength to have people to share this with and grow with on this journey...  Day 6 YES,, tomorrow is a week and i can hardly keep the grin off my face knowing i'm finally facing this demon, and that i am winning... hope everyone is having a good morning and feeling a little better than yesterday...

Lisa

[Tab57]

Congrats on 6 days of freedom!  I totally agree with you about the need fro a sponsor. I understand the nature of addiction as both of my parents have addiction issues. I grew up in a household where addiction was a way of life. I am currently the sponsor froa 28 year old friend who is qo days free from Loratab. I am holding him accountable. He tiold me of the warning signs the day before he began his treatment program. We communicate several times a day. I a giving him tough love right now.

Accountability is #1 right now. He called today needing legal help and saying he may relapse. I told him to stick it out and reminded him of the consequences of resuming his addiction. He is very sick. I made an appointment with my lawyer fro Monday and will go with him. This was in return for him to continue to stay off pills.

I wil be glad to sponsor you if you want just let me know and we will get started.










Every other time i have tried to give up these drugs,, it's always been a battle within and it always won.. i think i've figured out one of the reasons my past efforts were not successful,,, Accountability, nobody ever knew the battle i was fighting and nobody ever knew the hell i was going through, this time i have reached out and posted and made a few friends that it would break my heart to ever have to tell them that i was relapsing,, I guess that is why they say you should have a sponsor so that you have someone you have to answer to,, it sure gives me strength to have people to share this with and grow with on this journey...  Day 6 YES,, tomorrow is a week and i can hardly keep the grin off my face knowing i'm finally facing this demon, and that i am winning... hope everyone is having a good morning and feeling a little better than yesterday...

[VicAddict26]

My best friend has been on here for about a month reading people's posts,, and she knows what i will have to go through,, but it's impossible for her to relate because she hasn't ever had an addiction... as for my husband he understands a little better because he has smoked pot for many years and has struggled to give it up,, i really like this forum and the people because they have been there done that, or are trying to do it now... you get to see all the different stages of this disease... it reminds me of my battles that i've had to get to where i am when i see someone struggling, and it gives me hope and determination to see the people who have been here so long and have maintained sobriety,, i envy them that and that is where i want to be...

[flmagi]

Congrats on 6 days. Accountability and support are so important. If no one knows, then no one knows if you fail, so failing is no big deal. As far as your family understanding, thats hard, only another addict really knows what its like, but maybe you could get your husband, best friend and others to come on the forum and read some posts. I think that can be the best way for them to begin to understand.  If not, well, you always have all of us on the forum.
Stay strong and keep up the good work.

[VicAddict26]

Congrats on a week,, that is tomorrow for me and i am soooo excited, i've never made it this far,, but i'm determined that i will be watching that ticker count the days as i continue to progress and fight this,,,  we are stronger than this addiction and we can fight it,, Rock on girl,, you are doing it..

Lisa

[VicAddict26]

I have told my husband, my best friend, and my mother,,, and yes that was a HUGE relief... the only thing is they don't understand addiction, they sympathetic but don't really understand the hold the drug has on you and what it takes to get clean and stay clean... I find it comforting not to have to lie to them but at the same time besides telling me good job it's hard to tell them everything of this problem,, and that is where i rely on you guys,, i can be honest and not look bad because most of us have done things we weren't proud of and that we would have never done without these drugs... I am an avid reader and one of my favorite series is called Left Behind, it is a fictional story about true prophecies in the bible referring to the final judgements of the earth... last night i was laying there thinking and i remembered a quote that was from Jesus saying "resist the devil and he will flee from you" I know that i am an addict, but i feel if i keep resisting this God will protect me and make him flee from me,,, how many times the devil will try i don't know... but i will leave it in God's hands now because i am helpless without him,, i can't play with the devil anymore,, yes he makes you feel good for a while but then he consumes you!!!

Lisa

[gizzy32]

I wanted to add one more thing out of observation. Im not saying all cases, but many I see on here that have not come clean to family or spouses seem to sometimes struggle more. They may not even realize the guilt they feel cause they could not admit their mistake and be accountable. For me telling family and friends after was the biggest release I felt, it was a huge weight off my back.

[gizzy32]

Figuring out why past relapses happened is so important and your taking steps in the right direction now. Accountibility is so important cause it keeps us honest with our addiction and when it comes to quitting there are no excuses. I will NEVER relapse again and I know a few people that would fly here and kick my *** if i did, lol.

Congrats on 6 days, welcome back to the world of the living, haha.

[sway1]

way to go girl! i am 7 days free today and i can actually function. all the crazy sneaky deals are out of my head for a change and it is nice. life is stressful still so i have to stay on my recovery page in every sense of the word. i have alot of support in place this time too. we just cannot become complacent. gotta stay focused on the good prize now! hope you feel better and better. be proud and stay strong and i will too. peace.   sway