Day 6 not so positive-cravings

[kentuckyhelp]

I woke up today in severe pain in my lower back.  That is what started this damn rollercoaster.  Had difficulty getting out of bed because of the pain.  Now if you read my previous post they were full of positive energy, but not today.  I have been craving badly!  I don't know if it is the pain that is causing the cravings or just a part of the process.  I was walking around with my family today disgusted at the amount of pain in my back.  i could hardly move and I couldn't even carry my son because of the pain, had to have the wife do it.  Hurt my ego.  The only thing I kept thinking was if I had just one I could endure this pain and act normally.
I know if I cave I will literaly loose everything I have, wife, kids.  I don't want that and I really do feel good symptom wise but the cravings today are tough.  I don't really have access to them either, canceled my refill two days ago so that is gone and deleted all my phone numbers too.  It's like I am hungry but food won't satisfy me.  
I am closing in on a week tomorrow, less than 12 hours.  I actually slept well last night.
Any advice would be greatly appreciated.  
God Bless.

[Jammerson1906]

OMG you are me. Same thing, back injury caused my addiction, my abuse. We get rebound pain. Terrible rebound pain!! People with no back problems at all get the lower back pain....Mine was yesterday. Pain was bad....I chose to take 800mg of liquid gel Advil every 6 hours like clock work and extra strength Tylenol 2...that way I am taking something for the pain every 3 or 4 hours. Rotating them, not taking them together....on the bad days it is the only thing that helps! Oh and Tiger Balm....comes in a small glass container and only takes a little...truly helps!!!
You have been incredibly positive you are certainly entitled to a crappy day!!! I was told the cravings are 30 minutes...Facts like that help me through:)))
God Bless......

[sudie58]

its very normal to get the cravings, its a cunning disease this addiction, and its trying you at the moment.   dont give in to it, you will certainly regret it deeply, you are nearly a week clean, and you dont want to let that go to waste.  this is why a recovery plan is so good, such as NA/AA, counseling or therapy, anything that helps you to stop thinking like an addict and to stay clean.you are in a lot of pain, and it could be rebound pain, is there anything else you can try to help with it, wishing you well, god bless