It just keeps getting better and better.

[April_85]

So I started to feel a little better today after I was finally able to sleep for about 30 min in the past 2 days and the worst menstrual cramps of my life, no joke, just kicked in. Advil is not working.  I think I'm being punished. This is the absolute worst time i could have chosen to go off the lortab. I really need it for pain. Will i have to start all over with the withdrawals if I just took one 10mg lortab? In all seriousness, I am capable of just taking one and be fine. I feel like death...

[tgtiffany]

WOW!  You seem to have been busy today!!!  Glad that you are out and about too!  My husband's no-sleeping lasted about two weeks I wanna say.  Now he can sleep forever!  I think it all just depends on the person though.  Keep up the good work, you're doing so good!!!  

[April_85]

5 th day ct and Today I'm trying to sweat it out of my system. The sick feeling is gone but the insomnia and rls definitely lingers. Another night of only 3 hours of not so good sleep. Surprisingly today I feel energetic, mostly because my legs won't let me sit still. I've mowed my 2 acre yard, edged the sidewalks, and now about to wash the car. If I don't sleep tonight I'm not sure what will do it. How much longer am I not going to sleep? Especially after only abusing for a few months...does anyone have any idea? I thought this would all be done by now.

[BrotherFrankie]

please do tell hubby.. ask forgiveness and say you need his support..

he will feel respected by u asking him..

praying....

frankie

[tgtiffany]

That's what we're here for!!!  Just remember that you can do this.  Is it going to be hard? YES.  Hell even? MAYBE!  But it will definitely be worth it!!!  Then you will be free again from these pills and won't have to live your life around them!!!  Just keep your head up and remember that you CAN do this!!!!!  

[Devonlee]

I get severe menstrual cramps every single month sometimes twice a month. What helps is taking ibuprophen (600 or 800) and two tylenol....also thermacare heat wraps.  Just know that no matter how bad they are they only last a few days.....you will make it through!  

[ImDONENoMore]

There's always someone here who's going to understand these moments.  That's what makes this place so great.  You are never alone here april - and please think about letting your husband help you as well.  You DESERVE to be happy AND supported in a time of need!!  You really do.  :)

[April_85]

Well that says volumes about what I know. I had no idea ultram was even addictive. So scratch that! And text book were my words so no worries. I read it back and felt like an idiot.  I'm definitely not thinking in my right mind at the moment and see how easy it is to give in. I've already torn my medicine cabinet and purses apart looking for an expired bottle with a few I had along time ago. No luck. I'm glad because if I had them here I would def take them.
I am thinking you are both right about telling my husband. I feel like I'm cheating or something but not telling. We usually share everything so this is out of the ordinary for me. Pride is a hard pill to swallow. Thank you both for speaking the truth to me. You all will never know how much it has helped to have others actually take the time to help. Im amazed.

[ImDONENoMore]

Oh gosh - I definitely didn't mean to imply you sounded "text book".  Actually, your words hit close to home because that's exactly how I used to think -  "is ONE really going to hurt?"  But we both know the answer to that question, yeah, it does.

And I think you're okay with taking the advil for a few days only for the cramps - and try taking 2 every 4 to 6 hours and see how that goes.  I think if you need to take one more to help with the pain during those timeframes, and as long as it's only for a couple of days, it's fine.

And I'm about to suggest something else you might now want to hear (sorry) - but I do think telling your husband about what you're going through will help you.  I too didn't want my husband to know how bad it got (course he did - I was fooling NO ONE) - but still, his support was HUGE in my recovery.  Hey, they love us right?  Wouldn't you be there for HIM if this were the other way around?  Of course you would be, so why can't we let our loved ones to do the same for us?  Okay, just something to think about as ultimately, only you can decide if telling him is the right thing.  It just might take some of the pressure off you right now if he knew - that's all I'm saying.  And he could HELP ya know?  Okay, I'm going to back off on that now!!

And ultram?  NO - that was my DOC and it was the WORST withdrawal I ever experienced. vSo I'm going to say a big giant NO to that one (guess that's no surprise!)  Just give the advil a chance to work it's way into your system and stay consistent with taking it every 4 to 6 - it should start to help.  :)

[tgtiffany]

I have to agree with ImDONENoMore on this one.  You started off with one at the beginning and turned into an addict.  Now you are an addict and just one won't work anymore.  Don't give yourself an excuse to take them!!!  I think telling your husband is a good idea.  Explain to him what you are trying to do and he can help support you in your decision.  Also it might help you not be more stressed and frustrated trying to figure out things to tell him what's wrong with you!!!  

[April_85]

Ok so reading it back sounds a little text book...how many advil do you think I can take at one time? Will ultram help with cramps? I'm thinking about telling my husband but I'm so disappointed with myself I don't want him to see me that way too. I came close to saying something to him this afternoon. I'm trying to hide my misery and explain away why I'm not in the bed at night. I keep telling myself tonight I'll finally sleep and feel better tomorrow but I'm not sure that's going to be the case. I ate a banana and drank some tonic water and that does seem to help the jitters.

[ImDONENoMore]

Well, see, that kind of thinking is what got us into this mess to begin with - don't you think?  "i am capable of just taking one and be fine" - REALLY?  What are you going to do for next month's menstrual cramps?  See where I'm going here?  You have to, and I mean HAVE to, find another way to deal.  Try taking another advil!!!  :)