update, how do you keep your mind off it

[janshan]

Well i did it!  This is my first day without any vic. or oxy. I went from 80mg of oxy and weaned down to vics for two weeks, felt like **** the entire time.  So now i am fn done!
How do I not obsess on getting high. It is hard for me because my hubby still uses and it is here in front of me, I feel like I start obsessing on it.  Like licking the mirror that he has done lines on etc...I did not touch ocycotin for two weeks then on Sunday I had so much to do and I asked for a line and I friggin did it and hated myself for it.  But you know what I did not do it again and now I am done. How do I stay clean with it here?  With work he cannot get clean right now and he says he feels like I am hollyer than now because I am clean?
Thanks for all your support!

[worried878]

I was tthinking the same as r2r when i read this...that is sad that people who love u would do drugs in front of u...just doesnt seem supportive at all....will be tough to stay strong without making some big changes perhaps...i know when i quit smoking years ago...my long time boyfriend quit a couple of weeks later as it was hard on me when he smoked..i never said anything to him about it....he would hide it from me tho even before he quit...like go outside or smoke in the car ...i am glad u 2 have each other for support...support is so crucial..aftercare is a wonderful thing for me as well

[road2recovery]

I don't think you two realize how strong you really are...You need to give yourselves both pats on the back...I don't think there would be no way i would be clean if my husband was doing them in front of me, no way......It breaks my heart that the ones that are suppose to love you , are hurting you in this way...The least they can do , is not have it anywhere near you..I guess misery loves company...
I am so proud of both of you, and glad that you two can go through this together, since your situations are so alike....Hang on to that...And beat this poison!!!
best wishes to both of you
r2r

[flamingogirl1]

im so sorry he isnt being more helpful with this i know it ***** mine isnt either. that would be awesome if were were closer i sure could use a friend to help take my mind off this. i have one friend who knows what is going on an dhe has been amazingly supportive im strating to think i ouwld be better off wiht him instead of my husband i know that sounds bad but my husband doesnt seem to want to change. well even though we dont live near each other we still can talk if u want my cell # i can give it to u and maybe we can talk on the phne i dont know how comfortabel u feel wiht that but it may help. how old r u anyways? im 26 i think i remeber u saying u wer eclose to that age, i know talking and just talking about naythign sometimes makes me forgoet about the pills for a while. well let me know i woudl be happy to help in any way bc i know how hard this is. im actually going to try and get some vics to wean ogff with i was thinking of doing that for a while and since it worked fo ru it may just work for me.

[janshan]

hey I am glad you are still hanging in there too.  We just have to be so strong, if we can do this with it in front of our faces than we should be able to get off this **** for good.  I wish you were close so we could go do soemthing to get our frikkin minds off this.  I am going to try and go run even through I fee like ****.  My hub called and asked how i was doing and I said I feel good because I know it is not right here.  Then he said well that is not entirely true.  It made me want to cry now I am like ok should I search the house?  No No I just need to get out of here and not think about it.  If you can wean off on vics, I quit snorting then went to like 5 vics and just weaned down until I had nothing, it sucked but I am done, i hope!!!!!  hang in there

[flamingogirl1]

i know exactly how you feel!  i am currently weaning down on 120mg of oxy a day. my husband gets a script and he doesnt want to stop anytime soon bc he just got a new job as well. it is so hard bc im trying not to take alot but he is always snorting lines in front of me and i know the licking hte mirror thing i do that all the time when he snorts his lines!! hjow funny you are not alone im right there with u im finding it so hard to keep my mind of snorting the 0pills when he is always there geting high and he gets mad bc im not in as good a mood as him bc im pissed bc he is high and i feel like ****. man if u can get through this though you will be my hero bc im starting to thin i cannot but if you can then maybe i can do it too. stay strong u truly r a very strong person to have made it this far!

[janshan]

Thanks for the support, I guess I feel bad for dissing him when he is in need.  He did get clean before and it was me that inticed him back into it.  I guess I need to lay down the law and explain how serious I am about getting clean. Keep sending good thoughts please!!!

[studiogirl]

oh, i just read where you said he cant get clean right now.  So then, if he really cant, maybe you could stay somewhere else for the first month... I know that is hard to do and Im sure you want to be near your man but if he has it around it is so hard.  Either way I wish you all the best and like I said before, if you really want it, I believe you will make it.

[janshan]

I have brought it up numerous times but I really think he would prefer me on drugs.  I have begged him that if I ask for a line please do not give it to me but he will.  I have to find a way to do it without his support.  It is just hard I love that feeling, I think I need to find something to replace that high but what?  It is hard to top snorting a line of oxy, except being with my kids.

[studiogirl]

good for you.  Is there any way to get him to consider quitting too?  That is going to be hard but it sounds like you are determined and I believe you can do anything if you want to enough. Either way dont let his attitude or using stop you from doing this.

[Sunnyd210]

Thats just his guilt my friend, someone who is not doing the right thing wants someone to do it with. I dont think asking him nicely is going to help u need to be strong for the both of u and mayb he will want to stop to. I am soooo proud of u that is sooo awesome I dont think I could stop if I was in ur shoes!!!!!!!!!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Yes, please ask your hubby nicely to help you with this. You can do this.

[mimi1313]

Its hard to keep your mind of of it when you don't have it in front of you but to live with it would be really hard. If I were you I would tell him to hide it from you or not keep it in the house.