Witdraw from fentanyl but still and addict will things ever get better

[ARZ84]

I am withdrawing from Fentanyl, but today I gave in and snorted my oxycodione.  I am on morphine to help wean me from my meds, but it is still hell, and I have a prescription for everything I have, I am just abusing it.  I want to stop, and I want to do it bad.  I am afraid to actually admit to my doc's, or go to rehab (my insurance will cover 21 days a year up to 3 times in a lifetime) b/c they might stop me cold turkey or take away my pain killers.  I am trying to cut myself down to not needing the really hard stuff, and not needing it everyday.  But I have a chronic pain disorder there is no cure, and I will have it for life so I need the meds.  At the same time I am an addict to fentanyl, which I have now been off of since Sunday!  I crave it so bad, and have had to stop myself from calling my doc and going back on it.  I am taking morphine, but I would like to be off of that by this weekend, please tell me there is a light at the end of this dark endless nightmare.  Should I go to meetings, I am afraid to, are they anonymous?

[3rddayoff]

If you speak to a dr ask for clonidine 0.1mg tid and some diazepam 10mg bid and 5mg tid prn. Remember that diazepam is a benzo and u will need to taper but over a weeks time you wont have aproblem. The booze mixing is a verry bad idea.I would def talk to a dr. Lots of hot hot baths, if u have too spend the whole 3-5 day in the tub, it helps alots.

Grab some multi vitamins, immodium, boost meal replacements, gatorade and some melantonine sleep aid.....I dont suggest benadryl it doesnt help much altough some ppl suggest it... There is a non addictive but dependancy creating sllep aid thats called Zipiclone (Rhovane) 7.5-15 mg at bedtime. You have to watch out for the pill popping habit as it has to be broken also, but for the first couple of days you might need them...

As for lack of energy, get the L Thyrosine and Vit B6 to help absorbtion, it helps me out alot gives me that energie that hard to find in the early stages of detox......

You will experience cold sweats at night so be prepared, keep some extra sheets handy at all times....

If u can get some potassium suplements or a couple of babnanas a days, it will help with the Restless Leg Syndrome RLS.

After care is the most important. Look for AA or NA groups in your area, go to them as much as u can, the ppl there have gone trough the same things as u... It helps to vent out and will fill your day or part of it anyways..

Youre lucky your husband is understanding and the 1 week leave is a good idea. I u have asitter for the kids better


Good luck stay strong
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[ARZ84]

Thank you for that Thomas recipe I actually have a prescription for Attivan 1mg up to 2x daily. I am going to call and get a refill in case I cant get into a rehab facility, and I do it at home.  If I cant get in my husband is going on leave for a week, he is going to take leave, and help me.

[ARZ84]

I am going to go to rehab, I have gone through a little over a 1/2 of rum, and 1/2 a bottle of Amaretto.  Not to mention too much of my morphine, and the pills.  I need to stop being so damn dumb, the worse is I feel so good compared to how I did earlier, but if I keep on this path I am going to kill myself, and I have twobeautiful kids who need me.  I am just so scraed and sick of the pain.  I lived with it before, I can do it again I know I can.  This time I have a husband to support me, and maybe I can do some yoga since we are military and its free at the gym.  I heard that it was really good for people who have Fibryo.  What does everyone else do to deal with it?  I don't wanna be an addict who cant admit they are like both my parents, or admit it but don't wanna/ don't period seek the help they need. I feel like such an idiot right now, I shouldn't have drank.  I am going to call rehab facilities tomorrow morning, and my husband has agreed to help.  He didn't know I was drinking, I just told him. I hope this made sense, and thank all of you for the support.

[3rddayoff]

Its a vicious circle and the only way out is stop it completely wether its cold turkey or rehab. Take 2 weeks off work or the most u can take. Theres this thing called the Thomas recipy, it worked for me check it out.

Best of luck and dont be afraid to ask questions. where all here to help.

Admitting you have a problem is the biggest step to recoverry so youre almost there..

Dont give up

[LeaAnn807]

You have to stop mixing the alcohol with the pills.  That is dangerous.  You probably could benefit from professional help like rehab.  When we are addicts, it's kind of all or nothing.  You need to get completely off your meds and decide to live with the pain or just stay on them and hope for the best.  But, as addicts, there is no way of just "not taking the hard stuff!"  You will never be satisfied with that.  I promise!  Many members have chronic pain issues, but they have chosen to live with some pain rather than be chained to a pill bottle!

It's a tough decision for some, but give it some thought!!!  Life is really worth living when you stop the pills!!!!

[ARZ84]

Also I have given in and begun drinking the last few nights, two pina colada's 2 shots rum each before bed, I know I am going down a bad path and making things worse...I know it but I cant seem to stop myself, god what can I do?