Just Plain Ignorance :(

[bellaandme]

Sooo I was almost four days in and got pills lastnite of course just for the nite so I could sleep because I wokeup after only maybe an hour and a half sleep and was freaking out hard core...so anyhoo I know what I did and what I gotta do I just figured I need to tell the truth and let the god lord love me lol so here I am on day 1 again :/ I swear I wanna beat some sense Into my lil head well here's to day 1 again I guess hope everyone is doing better than me oh and one other thing I have searched for na and aa and I can't find one n the am and the pms r when I'm still at work what to do what to do

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

Hey Bella I haven't seen you on in forever just checking in on you. Hit me up.

[dominosarah]

Try and stay away from anything with caffeine right now.  It can make things worse.

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

You and your red bulls. Hang in there we're on day two.

[bellaandme]

Oh no I haven't I will check into that thank you and sarah thank you for the support I'm having terrible cravings but I just keep drinking redbulls lol thanks for the support :)

[DayToTry]

Oh Bella ... I saw you mentioned you tried melatonin and benadryl but I didn't see where you said you tried my doxy whatever ...   :)

[dominosarah]

Sleep is the hardest thing we usually have to deal with.  It will come back and when it does you will feel like a million dollars!!   Hopefully you will get some tonight.  If you dont i will be up!!

[bellaandme]

I've taken melatonin benadryl flexril all of it and it doesn't do a hill of beans for me :( but thanks for the suggestions :) I just gotta deal I made the bed now I have to lie in it..Gettting ready for work woohoo hope all of us have a good day :)

[Toooldforthisstuff]

I used 50-100mg of Benedryl to help me sleep when I was detoxing  and it worked fine.  The first few nights were still pretty restless, tho.  Hang in there, you CAN do it!!!  And just say NO!

Christy

[DayToTry]

Bella I took a sleeping pill that you can get at Wal-Mart, Kroger, CVS, Wal-Green ... pretty much any where.  Its the same thing any where just in store packaging.  Look for the one with the ingrediant doxylamine succinate.  It really helped me.  A lot of people also suggest Melatonin, but it made me dizzy.  You might try it.  Just because it made me dizzy, it probably won't you.  Things effect different people differently.

[bellaandme]

Thanks sarah ur such a doll still up walking the house watched a lil tv but got anixious so I'm walking n the dark :( thank you for checking up on me it means a lot

[dominosarah]

Dont lie in bed and toss and turn whatever you do.  That just makes it worse.  Do you like to read?  Watch a movie?

[bellaandme]

Ahhhh this blows this is the part that throws me over the age still wide awake yet feel tired an have yawned all nite gosh help me :(

[dominosarah]

Hot showers or baths always help.  Keep moving forward.........sara

[bellaandme]

I'm still alive and doing okay had a slip lastnite but I'm trucking through sittin n the shower it helps my legs a bit if anyone needs to talk I can listen I'll be up all nite lol

[bellaandme]

Yea I just need some sense knocked n me. A few times lol I work everyday but my shift doesn't end til 7 and I'm 30 mins from my home so ima try and find something within the area I work :) thank you so much for the support

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

Haha Klean u crack me up.

[IBKleen]

Nancy Reagan might have been on to something when she said "Just Say No".

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

Yeah ! I can't get rid of my connections but i told them no more.  So hopefully that works.

[dominosarah]

Dont spend alot of time beating yourself up.  That just creates more negativity.  Gotta get rid of the connections, no matter what.

Do you work every night of the week?  If not ask for the night off the meetings are going on if possible.

You can do this!!  Now fight for you as you are worth it.          sara

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

Fun fun fun.  Well here we are again.  Well get through it together.

[bellaandme]

Thanks Ibkleen ur rite no sorry feeling here just mad at myself more than anything one big problem for me is boredom I get bored so if ima sit home by myself might as well be high doing it that's sad huh gotta change my way of thinking.....Repeatly sorry to here about ur relapse we will get through it we can be each others buddies lol I'm going to get some immodium lol cause that is not good when waiting on people all day taking orders and running to the bathroom :/  

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

I think hes talkin to you on the supply thing. He's prolly right.  Okay he's definitely right. Let me know when you start to get sick again. So we can share in this joy.  :)

[IBKleen]

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move forward. No feeling sorry for yourself, okay?

You need to do something about your supply of pills. I don't know if they are calling your name from a bottle in the house or a "friend" down the street. Either way, change needs to be made there.

As far as meetings, I don't know where you live but you will be hard pressed to find a morning meetings unless you are in a big city. AA normally has a noon meetings, even in rural areas so try that.

Mostly, hang in there. Keep your eyes on the prize!!

[RepeatyWithdrawlr]

"I too now am in the framing business" obscure movie reference there.  So yeah, for days in. Relapsed last night.  Got some sleep though.  Sitting here now wondering when the other shoe is gonna drop.  Also fighting the urge to get more.  They are "available" .  NO! Not this time.  Welcome to day 1.  We can do this.  God still loves us. Even if we don't love ourself.
Hang in there.
-Repeaty-