Last Year At This Time

[gizzy32]

Last year at this time i felt like s hit. i remember getting up in the mornings (if i did sleep) and drag my *** to work. it was so hard to function as a cokehead, but somehow i did it. as long as i had lines to keep me going i thought i could get through the day, but the truth is, it just brought me down farther and farther. this year im up at 6:45 without an alarm clock and ready to go once i get my cup of coffee in me. kinda nice not to have to sniff 3 lines before going to work:)

Last year at this time i saw no hope at all. i was beaten by this drug and just got by. now i am free and feel like im working for something instead of blowing $400-$500 a week on coke.

Last year at this time i was 20 pounds lighter and deathly ill. had no smell, no feelings and didn't give a **** about nobody except myself. now i think im a much better person, but i still have many faults that i am working on.

Last year at this time, i had no idea how good life could be without drugs. i thought how can a person function without getting high, i didn't understand. now i think, how can a person function using drugs, it's a painful, lonely life and a life i refuse to go back to ever.

But most important, last year at this time i did not have the tools or know how to stay clean. i kept saying i can quit on my own, over and over and over and over, but it never happened. now i know what i need to do to stay clean and i could not have done it alone. i still can't do it alone and im thankful i found a great place for support.

[worried878]

you have come a long long way....sounds like u were down in the trenches at one time...glad 4 u

[aloneandempty85]

Sounds impossible, but you did it. You are amazing. I am clinging to a tiny shred of hope that one day i will know that feeling. keep it up.

[bobby139]

Just like r2r i am very teary eyed too....it is so great to see you clean, we really didn't know eachother when u were going though it but i was lurking and then thank goodness was lucky enouph to become a friend...I cant imagine you not caring for others, you are such a nice and caring person and always here to help anyone in need..I agree that even tho we are clean we will alway's need help and support to stay that way..and i am glad your there if i need it, your one of the special ones here. keep up the good work
hugz and luv
bobby

[road2recovery]

Great post...Made me teary eyed too!!  U have done so well, and continue to try to help everyone that comes your way....You have been through alot and came out better for it!!!
I am so proud of you!!  And proud to have u as my friend..
Love ya much
r2r

[cathy5841]

good for you giz.  we all need help sometimes.
love you
cathy

[hopsing94]

Gizzy I'm so proud of you bro. You have come so far and you really have your head on straight now. We are all blessed by having you here. You are a great person,a good friend  and somebody I am proud to say I know.  

[oxygirl487]

i love u gizzy and im so proud of u....ur post made me cry...a good cry though......love u buddy.........

[confused456]

Glad you are clean and doing good now!!

[virgo1969]

New year, new person. The realization in looking back is scary. I am glad that you have decided that that was not the life for you. I agree, it takes support to stay clean. This forum has been a lifesaver for me as no one in my life can relate to these types of addictions.

Keep up the great work and welcome back to life. You deserve it.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

and be thankful that its a new year!