Life Pills

[Sammy1981]

“I watch the clock with an anxious anxiety that only an addict could possibly understand. I am out off my 40 mg oxycontins. I went through a month supply in only 2 weeks.  I have to go to the emergency room to try and score some more, but they only gave me 5 mg vicodin. I can’t call my doctor because he will know that I am abusing this prescription.  May be I can come up with a lie. I can tell him I accidently threw my prescription away, and then maybe he will give me another prescription. No, I did that last month. He will never believe that story again, I don’t even think he believed it the first time.  I need more, I need to feel free. Only the euphoric feel of narcotics can make me happy and give me motivation. Once I get what I need I know that for a few moments that I will be happy.  I’m a better person when I take these drugs. I am more giving, more creative, and more ambitious. I am easier to talk to and everybody loves my cheerfulness.  I can’t feel normal without my pills.”
I decided to post this to show that most people on this board understand the pain of addiction and withdrawals. I have been clean for 3 years, but I still battle addiction every day. It will always be day by day.

[addictedme]

Your post could be the addicts anthem. By the end of today there could be 100 replys all just saying  "ditto that",,,thx for the post

[worried878]

Thank goodness for ur ending statement...i was about to say "buddy, u r in the wrong place"  but thanks now that i see ur point.....3 years tho and u still want the pills?   geez...i know it is better tho...it would have to be...thanks for the post...i could relate as well...i have never gone to the er or lied to a doctor...but have practically gone broke trying to buy them off the street.....never enough it seemed...felt safe when u had a whole bottle and then more and more scared as the bottle dwindled....dont miss it...the owrrying and stress they cause

[Rose703]

Whewww I sure was glad to read the 3 years clean part otherwise I was going to tell you that clearly you aren't ready to get clean!!

It's sad what our addiction turns us into and your post clearly shows how the brain thinks as an addict.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

I was sure glad to read that part about clean three years...isnt it amazing how the pills control a person? If you ever want to see a prime example, check out Picadilly Circus around midnight sometime and check out the registered addicts waiting for midnight and a new day so they can get their Gov supply........absolutely pitiful......and i could have been one of them.....I chose life and family -