Mental cravings!

[jojo3boys]

I wish they had medicine for that! I have to keep reminding myself everyday allday, why I can't ever take a pill again! Oh my God, this is hard. I hope this subsides, I just want to be a clean, good mommy, I can't even go out and have a drink because everything reminds me of DOC. Well Im going to try and clean this house today, thank u guys for all ur encouraging words, what would I do if I couldn't read these post when my cravings started.

[penny1974]

Music and moving around helps me pass time. I also have a set of vitamin's that I set aside and take them instead. Its a good feeling too be taking something that is health for me. I do a multivitamin in the morning then a b-6 complex and L-tryosine before lunch and potassium in the afternoon and a vitamin c when I feel I want it. For me it helps with the thought of wanting on and I can't so instead I take the good stuff (all natural)  at night I really like the natural calm mix. It helps me with relaxing a little. Good luck (this to shall pass). That is a phrase I read on some ones post and I loved it. It's so true. Hard but true :)

[dirtydirk]

do a lil reasearch on VIVITAL  its recently been used in 2nd phase wds and is non-habit forming, or they say its not!!!!  At least check it out maybe ask your family DR

[motye51]

I understand your reasoning for not telling anyone as you are afraid of reprocussions to your family members. Truly I do. My husband and I own a very successful business and I don't want anyone to know what I'm doing, however.....(had to be a however, lol) and yall don't know me from Adam, but in my n/a meetings are doctors, nurses, lawyers, judges, some of my customers!!! Its a real diverse group. There is NO SHAME in admitting theres a problem, and trying to fix it. Aftercare is really going to be needed if u want to stay clean. My opinion, but fixing a problem should be a good thing, right?

[Ldytaz]

Wow,"I have to remind myself everyday,allday".. that threw me back 17 years when I got off my doc speed.. I had 3 boys and all I had to do is look at them and be reminded that even tho I and everyone else though I was super Mom,it was the drug.. I told evryone when I stopped even my boys school.I could no longer be,troop leader,team MOm karate and baseball coach.. But,it was only for awhile..By the very next school year I was out there doing everything I did on the drug..and you know what,that is where all my memories of their youth stay with me.I remember how it was but,I dont remember how I felt.when they win when thsy run up and hug u just because u r there.I will never forget oe supportive everyone was.We as addicts think no one outside our drug circle can see or know what we r doing.But,the sad fact is most already know.When I told ppl they encouraged my recovery.Every time I ran into anyone they praised me on my continuing to stay clean.I got awards at work(yes they knew there too)..about 6 months into it I was transferred to a store right in the middle of my old drug neighborhood..Well,after easter some tweakers came in and were going thru the 1/2 off candy and spotted me,ran,hugged,talked and went bk too the carts..One of my coworkers looked at me and "from your past life Dena"..I laughed and realized that is what it was my past.I had a future that was bright and drug free.U get me..I told them and they helped me in my struggle.I went to work everyday and to meetings 5-7 nights a week.U r struggling and I get it.Stay clean and keep posting..and be proud of who u r becoming for u and your kids.

[jojo3boys]

I wish I could tell my family, but they are community leaders, that's proberly why Im so honest and candid here on this forum. I have been staying as busy, as I can, doing things with my boys, and on a positive, its feels good to do things with my kids and truly live in the moment. Because honestly I use to stay attach to my phone, trying to find some pills. Feeling depressed but Im moving forward. Its hard but if I can do it anyone can.

[bama88]

Cravings are hard....its another thing youve got to push thru....youve got to redirect your thinking when they come on...also its a great time to start to move the body....get up and get going..sitting around will only intensify them. Music helped me...tuned it out..

the more clean time you build up the more your living pill free...eventually the cravings will fade away...glad you came here and posted

[kyle505]

You are doing great, but you've got to understand that the mental struggle will be with you always. It gets much easier to manage the longer you've been clean. Also, if you haven't already, you need to tell trusted loved ones about your addiction; they will become a very important part of your support group. I'm not saying to shout it to the world, just important people that you can trust and depend on.
And one more thing; as a recovering alcoholic, you really should stay away from booze. Maybe not forever, but anything at this point that messes up your thinking is very, very dangerous. Just a suggestion.
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[VICourageous]

Do Everything it takes to re-direct that thinking.It takes only a min to think about a pill & the whys & what for..BUT One sec to re-direct yourself away from it..Keep busy doing something..Anything but using..I wish you peace and serenity. Keep on Working on it day by day because it is a very hard job at first..
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