looking for support

[sarvalk]

I am looking for help. I am addicted to oxycodone. I started taking it for medical reasons. I have had back surgery (discectomy) for herniated L5-s1. And it was easy to stop taking them. Then in 2007 I reherniated the disc when I gave birth to my son. I was also diagnosed chronic Lyme disease 3 months after I had my son. At that time my Dr. Prescribed me 10mg percs. After about a year I told my Dr. That they werent helping the pain anymore and I was taking more than prescribed. Sooooo....he put me on 30mg oxycodone. As of may 2011...I have 3 more herniated discs. And one of the discs is crushing my sciatic (sp) causing severe pain shooting down my leg. I have such severe hip pain I cant sleep more than an hour without it waking me up. I can't get out of bed for over an hour in the am because of the hip pain. I can't open my hands or walk without severe joint pain from the lyme.
So I take a 30mg oxy and it doesn't help so I take another then another then another. And then my perscription runs out. My tolerance is so high at this point they do nothing for the pain. I don't want to take them anymore but I don't think I can do the withdraw. I've been reading. I want to take my medicine as prescribed but they don't do anything for my pain anymore. So now its basically like this, I take my meds they don't help my pain so I take more and more thinking maybe this next pill will stop the pain but it never does. And then I find myself taking them because I just want to forget life. I don't want to live like this anymore...I am looking for help anywhere. I'm embarressed. I can't look to my family for help. I want my life back. But how do you get your life back when you tell a dr. Ur taking too many pills so they give you a higher dose. Another Dr. Wants to put in a morphine pump. And another Dr. Tells you there is nothing that can be done about your pain you
have to live with it the rest of your life and the only help is pills.:a108:
Please I need support I need to know its not impossible and there is hope.

[taytay0308]

i agree with you lu once you get off the pain is not as bad because you have convinced yourself your in all this pain to feed your addiction and have a ligit reason too. have you tried to get them to put you on anything for yourr nerves they put me on neuroten (spelling prob not correct) but it made a huge difference. i know my pain is not as sever as that but that may be something to ask about.

[lulu747]

Hi there...
I hear your pain and hopelessness, and I'm sorry you are suffering so much.  My heart goes out to you.  The best advice I can give you is to arm yourself with as much knowledge as possible regarding your health.  Have you tried alternative pain therapies?  I existed in pain on opiates for many years before I found holistic ways to manage my pain more effectively and have a MUCH better quality of life. I find my pain is significantly less 3 months post opiates...But that's me. Only you know what is right for you.  It takes work, time, patience, and trial and error to find what works for you ...But you are worth it and your life is worth it!  You deserve to be happy.
Sending support and prayers..
Lu

[LostNoMore]

Welcome to the forum and I'm sorry you're in such pain every day. I know how debilitating and frustrating that is. My mother has similar issues with her back. She takes 40-50 mgs of hydrocodone per day and she's been having to increase the dose because of her tolerance. About a year ago, she was given the opportunity to go on a morphine pump, the kind they implant inside of you.
She LOVED it. None of the digestive problems associated with ingesting the
opiates orally. Unfortunately, her body rejected it and they took it out so she's back to the pills. Look into the pump. In my opinion, you need strong pain meds to function, and that's what opiates are for.  If you don't get answers from your doctor, find another one. My mom had to go through a few to find one who actually cared about her well-being. No offense to all the Docs out there, but some are good and some aren't. I hope you find some relief.