sick and tired of games

[smurf202]

i have a serious problem every tim i try to give up metadone i get very emotional now im a bloke  that does not cry much but the stupid of things make sad or upset,and my mind keeps playing games with me i can never let things go like what i have done the past.its driving me mad i dont know how many times suiside pops into my head in a day not that i would do it but my god this is horrible between lack of sleep and mind games i dont know how long this can go on. anyone got some good advice for me that does not involve n.a.

[10356]

I was once right where you are I could not shake the past It haunted my every step it stole joy like a thief in the night I finally had the opportunity to see a psychiatrist almost 2 years ago, it was so freakin hard in the beginning My phyc would schedule the time when my hubby would be home to make sure I would go, after some time I looked forward to going I have to say I have learned so much about myself. I know longer live in the past it does not dictate my life anymore, I was able to confront my abuser whom set me on a path of self destruction and I was empowered.. I quit drinking a year ago in a few weeks. I'm over 2 months clean for the first time since I was 12 or 13 I have to tell you I was at the end of my rope, my family thought I was going to die they were so scared for me. I turned it around with help I pray that you seek counseling with this. Life can be good...  

[wannabefree330]

You can do this.  Uphill7584 is right in saying w/d is a psychological mind game.  Things you used to just brush off are going to really get to you.  You have been using the methadone to be able to deal with things that way.  BE patient with yourself.  Allow the emotions to run their course and deal with it the best you can right now.  They will pass over time.  If you feel you just can't take it, call the doctor for a short term antidepressant if need be.  I use opiates to hide from the reality of my life.  when the opiates are gone, reality hits me head on.  But I am able to deal with it one thing and one day at a time.  You too will heal, but as avisg says it takes a long time.  Don't give up-you can beat this!

[avisg]

Methadone i a very difficult drug to come off of . Discussing different options with a doctor would be a very good idea.WD lasts a very long time.Look into all of the options then choose what would suit you the best.

[uphill7584]

Withdrawl is a very psychological game. Especially if you tended to worry before you started using, or if you started using to get away from those worries. Try reminding yourself that you are having a physical reaction to being without the drug. If you think you have some anxiety or depression issues go see a counselor. Being able to sit down with somebody that has no relation to you and just vent can do wonders. Really though, those racing thoughts, worries, etc that creep up will pass. I had them too. And yeah I thought they would never go away and that I couldn't live with it. But they did pass. You are going to be okay. But if they get too intense, call a doctor or just walk into a clinic. They will take care of you.