Thanks for the encouragement. What is an SSRI? I'm down the the lowest amount of opiates I've ever taken since I've been addicted as now I am taking half a pill only at night before I go to bed so I can sleep. And for the past 4 days I've only taken at night every other day. Right now I am on an off night so will not take anything again tonight. I had hoped to already completely stop but with certain other things going on in my life I'm afraid I'll just mess up and I have it down to do little right now I don't want to screw it up and go the other way. I'm going to try and go two days in a row and not take anything tomorrow as well. Cheers everyone.
I was addicted to Oxycodone for about 11 years. Stopped cold turkey. It was the hardest thing I had ever done in my life. Just know. It will get better with time. You may not believe that but it will. I swear to you. You will have setbacks and urges to use. Fight them with all your power. Do not let the urges and cravings win. You will recover from this. Your brain and its opiate receptors need to heal. I would suggest starting an SSRI as it helped a great deal by normalizing brain chemicals that were out of whack by the opiate use. Your Norepinephrin and gaba receptors is running wild and your Serotonin needs time to build back up. It takes time for your brain to reach equilibrium.
Well thanks for the help then no guess I'm a little on edge from the tapering. Found an NA to go to and also made an appointment with therapist to talk too. My plan is to be completely off by next week since it'll have been almost two weeks of tapering. Heard opana is much harder WD than oxycodone a that's the main reason I was across to go straight cold turkey. I figured I would fail if so. But I've cut down SO much that it should be a lot better now. Will keep everyone update.
No one is being judgemental, sorry you think that. We are just pointing out what you need to do. We aren't a resource for finding rehabs, you're going to have to call around for that yourself. For NA, go to https://www.na.org to find meetings. They are free and you can go even if you aren't clean.
Weird. I don't know why my post has all these symbols and numbers that popped up. Don't know how to edit on here though so hope that's readable.
The main reason I posted here was to get advice on what after care works best or where to start. No need to be so judgemental. Posted on here for advice not judgement. Thanks. Wouldn't have posted asking where to find/look for the best rehabs/NA if I wasn't trying to fix myself. Already down to half an opana a day, a quarter in the morning and a quarter at night, but I'm more than aware that if I don't get real human help I won't succeed.
Mercedes- You wrote a lot but funny thing is, all addict's stories are the same. As Gnarly wrote, you did hit rock bottom several times but it wasn't enough for you to stop. Are you so sick and tired of this type of life that you are willing to do ANYTHING that sober people tell you? I hope so. First. Get rid of all access to drugs. Cut off the old "friends", dealers, everyone. Change your ph # or at least block #s. You will have to detox as you know. You know it s u c k s. But it is better doing it at home than in jail. Most importantly, get your butt into aftercare NOW. Go directly to NA (or AA.) I cannot tell you how often this happens on this site, but people come back here, still struggling because they tried to do it on their own. If you could have, you would have. And as you can see, it's getting worse. Aftercare (meetings) are how you STAY clean. Anyone can detox. It's staying clean that's the effort, and where your effort needs to be.
So many folks write a desperate post, then we never hear from them again. Don't be one of those. Life isn't perfect, but let me tell you what a RELIEF it is to not be chasing opiates all day. Chasing opiates is not a life. It's a waste. You deserve better.
Let us know your next step:)
Hi and welcome to the forum.....well you seam sincere in wanting to get clean...from reading this it seams like you have hit rock bottom several times.... the real key here is to get involved with aftercare the detox is the ez part staying clean takes work....I have tryed most options first the pastor of my church then a therapist then a substance abuse counselor... like you I would get some clean time but always went back....then I decide to try N/A....N/a has been the magic bullet for me it is free the meetings are only a hour long and it will give you some place to share where the people will understand....the one thing N/A has done for me is I have lost the very desire to use...something I thought was impossible my advise go to meetings...as many as you can get a sponcer and work the steps with time the progam will not only keep you clean but it will help you put back the train wreck your life has become...the only requirement for membership is the desire to quit so google a N/A meeting in your area and start your road to recovery...if you ask around here on the forum you will find most of the people with any signifacate amount off clean time use aftercare long after the pills stop your still stuck with the addict in your head N/A treats the addict ...if it works for a old dope fiend like me it will work for anyone keep posting for support.........Gnarly................