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Might relapse
Well so far I'm 37 days free from tramadol and 35 days free from vicodin. I've had urges and cravings but I feel like today might be the day I cave in. I'm so tempted to call the doctors and make an appointment. It doesn't help that my pain has been flaring up but mabe I'm making it worse than it seems.
I've made some progress but as much as I go over all the negatives of going to the doctor today it still seems like a good idea to me. I feel like my family doesn't care if I relapse or not and I feel like I haven't made any progress in my life cause I'm just unhappy most of the time. Do I need more time? Alot of ppl here have already taken time to help me and encourage me and I appreciate that. Is it possible I can take the medication as prescribed or am I setting myself up for failure?
I've made some progress but as much as I go over all the negatives of going to the doctor today it still seems like a good idea to me. I feel like my family doesn't care if I relapse or not and I feel like I haven't made any progress in my life cause I'm just unhappy most of the time. Do I need more time? Alot of ppl here have already taken time to help me and encourage me and I appreciate that. Is it possible I can take the medication as prescribed or am I setting myself up for failure?
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Killerzoey is sooo right. Write down all the reason's these pills had you on your knees. That will pull you back to reality. Good luck!
Stay strong, you can do this. I'm right behind you today its 32 days for me. I know our addict minds try to trick us that the only way out is using but that got us no where before. Keep fighting, we will be free soon...
Hey Minty, Think of all the damn hard work you've put into this process. To blow it for what? A 10 minute high that will evaporate along with your spirit and soul. You think your family doesn't care. I promise, they do. Besides that, what about YOU???? Do you want to start the fricken rain dear games over again? You've walked the walk, done the work, now it's time to look ahead and chip away at the reason's why. You've made huge progress. Just ask anyone on day 3. You don't want to repeat this dance and if you go to Dr. and get script you will. We're here...lean on us. Remember what used to make you smile and do some of that today. Keep posting. This is just your addict brain trying to pull ya in.
Maybe it would help to read back on previous post and see what you went through? Yours was one if the first posts I read when coming here to get help quitting Tramadol.
Maybe tell yourself you will see the doctor tomorrow. Buy a day. Tomorrow, tell yourself the same?
Make a list of the pros and cons? You're probably thinking catastrophically. Might help to see it on paper.
Based on what you came off im going to hazard a fuess: You went through some hell to get clean. Think of all that you would have to do again if you go back on the pills. It's pretty much inevitable.
Do something to boost endorphins...see a really moving film, listen to some Grateful Dead (wait, that's me :)...
I really hope you hang in there.
Maybe tell yourself you will see the doctor tomorrow. Buy a day. Tomorrow, tell yourself the same?
Make a list of the pros and cons? You're probably thinking catastrophically. Might help to see it on paper.
Based on what you came off im going to hazard a fuess: You went through some hell to get clean. Think of all that you would have to do again if you go back on the pills. It's pretty much inevitable.
Do something to boost endorphins...see a really moving film, listen to some Grateful Dead (wait, that's me :)...
I really hope you hang in there.
It's so weird it's not a physical craving but it's more a mental one.. Like a voice tempting of greener pastures. I know it's all an illusion but it seems so tempting like an oasis in the desert lol... But then you realize after it was just sand
Don't do it! 35 days is awesome. Try to occupy your self I know boredom for me is brutal maybe you can pick up a book and dive into that so you can redirect your head! For the pain try Tylenol or Advil.. Have you talked to your doctor about feeling the way you do? Stay clean for you wether you feel the family cares or not. I am sure they do care but a lot of families don't offer verbal support but inside they do care!
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Seriously, it will get better and better every day. I still have some energy and other minor issues, but I used for a long, long time (like 15 years, at a high volume). Even my bad days now are better than the good ones stoned out on pills; paranoid, broke and humiliated & living in a fog. HANG IN THERE - keep posting Good luck!