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[iwanttoliveireallydo]

Ok so I am new to this site and new to forums n what not but bcoz I havent tried it yet its worth a go so here I am 35 mother of 2 and extremely worried about the effects that my 10yrs+ addiction to mersyndol is having on my body/liver, ive been a 40+ a day abuser and have tried to stop many times been to detox didnt really like it as it seemed alot of the other patients were there to talk up there addiction been cold turkey a few times but 2 weeks was the longest I went without and I cant really say why I started to pop those nasty lil yellow tablets coz I was feeling great without them and saw a future with me not dependent on them but here I am again im going for a liver function test today I hope I havent done too much damage but in saying that I continue to buy pkts of mersyndol and pop them like they are candy, I feel so stupid I know its dangerous and toxic and I look at my babies especially by 15month old lil girl(my son is 14) and wonder why im risking her future why is it do hard to stop this selfishness destructive behavior!!! Now with that lil rant out the way this morning I am 24hrs into cold turkey, the diarrhea has started so has the runny nose & sneezing, pls help me find the strength to just get through this day without giving into my demon xx

[atthebeach]

Good for you wanting to reclaim your life. Congrats on 48 hrs.
Treat your symptoms Imodium for the diarrhea, take hot baths with Epsom salts for aches, anxiety. Walk around and move as much as possible. It is important to try to eat small amounts of food, soups, crackers, yogurt. Pudding,toast. Keep hydrating. Gatorade, juices.

You know the hard part is staying clean. You will need to get outside support, counseling, new hobby, church, support groups, accountability to family or friends. Because you can buy them so easily that will be a challenge and the temptation is great. You need to have an internal fight and resolution that your health and life are more important. Recovery is a marathon not a sprint. Each day you must decide today you will not use.

[iwanttoliveireallydo]

Omg thank you so much for reaching out chic im almost 48 hrs now without any mersyndol(its a codeine, paracetamol mix) in australia its otc and very cheap!!! This was awesome in the beginning so I thought but now it makes it that little bit harder to stay true. Today my head was going crazy like you said I felt sooo alone having this little demonic voice in my head saying go on just get 1 pk you can have just a few to numb that ache but I cant have "just a few" I cant moderate which is why im in this situation choosing to go cold turkey. At the moment spider im looking after my little girl by myself her dad is in prison n I dont have the best family support I do have 1 friend I hold very dear and during these first few days she insisted I stay with her and also she been forcing the water down my throat!! Is pm a private message n if so how do I do that?  :)

[spider6]

Hi there sweetheart,

I'm glad you want to live and are seeking support.  I as well do not know
anything about this drug.  But as Vic has said someone will be addressing you soon so hang tight.  

I hate to say that I relate to you my dear.  I feel sick when I think about the
years my kids were babies....I feel like I missed so much and kind of
ripped them off of a "full package" mom..but you know what, you aren't
going to make the same mistake I did and continue on for a total of
40 yrs. of haze.....you are taking charge NOW and that is something
to be so proud of!  

So you're already about 8 hrs. into your w/d, that's pretty good....you've got a lot out of the way already..  

As Vic said....keep on this feed and keep posting....it helps to make you
feel connected and not so alone.

Do you have anyone to watch your 15mos. old baby.....that can be tough,
I remember being very sick with mine and it is difficult but not completely
undoable.

If you would like to pm me and talk anytime that would be fine by me.
again...hang tight girl...just take it moment by moment, keep hydrated.

peace and hope
spider

[VICourageous]

Good..I am glad you moved it over here..You will get more response here..Right now it is late and slow..SO keep checking your post..OK I know you waited a long time over at the other area but do keep checking in this one for sure..I wish you the best and I will be back when the ball gets rolling..I do not know anything about this med..I did do some reaches on it a while ago..
Hang tight.