Need help kicking vicodin habit!!!

[Nissa83]

I have been abusing vicodin, percoset, oxys, anything I can find for 3 years, I'm up to 80-120mg per day. I took 80mg by 5:30pm Friday, didn't take any Saturday but flipped out on my husband in a panic attack and now he won't come home, woke up Sunday feeling like I was gonna day with all of what I know now are "normal" withdrawal symptoms, but stupid me just HAD to go out and seek 12 more 10mg vicodins, I took two today, of course I feel better...but here's the deal, I just started probation, I see my PO for the first time in 8 days and HAVE to be clean, I have a almost 5yr old daughter at home, a good job, and I don't want to lose everything!! I called a couple places today, one guy told me I need to go to treatment for a month, but how can I leave my job, my kid, my home for a MONTH? Then a lady said she'd sign me up for methadone clinic, sure my PO won't allow that! I could call my DR but he's clueless, I've been buying all my pills on the street for the last 3 years!!! WHAT DO I DO NOW???

[timeisthefire]

if you have a valid script probation can't say anything.have you looked into suboxone ? it saved my life! what on probation for?don't have to answer might help to know whole situation.

[timeisthefire]

have looked into the suboxone program ? its possible that your dr is able to prescribe it or possibly find it on the street.it will take the "sick" away.depending where ur probation is they usually don't P-test for "sub" Good Luck

[apike31108]

You should be fine. I think they said they are out of your system in the most 3 days? But make sure you don't go back to them when they are gone. It's so hard I know. Honestly I would start sooner than later though. You will be ok. It's hard mentally I know. I went through it last week. Your husband will be back. He will understand and forgive. It was the pills not you. You all will recover :)

[kk1303]

you will still feel like crap tapering that fast. best to just stop now. you can ask a dr to prescribed you clonidine. its a blood pressure med but is suppose to help with opiate withdrawals. i don't have insurance and it only cost me $5. i still felt like crap, don't get me wrong, but maybe it helped? i dunno...it was my first time detoxing so i have nothing to compare it to.

[Nissa83]

I have to see my PO for the first time one week from today now. I have 5 pills left and I was going to try to take two today, one tomorrow, one wednesday, then have Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday (I see my PO monday at 5pm) to clean up. But God even saying that outloud sounds terrible!!! I'm such a wreck!!!

[Nissa83]

I hit my husband, over and over, that's how I attacked him. I just wanted to sleep and he kept waking me up and I just lost it on him. I made an emergency eval appt for tonight at 6pm and I'm going to be honest with them and see what they suggest. one place I called said detoxing from opiates isn't life threatening so they wouldn't help me. I just feel so weak, mentally and physically!!! I have BEGGED AND APOLOGIZED to my husband and he says this time it's too much and he doesn't want a divorce but he doesn't want to come back anytime soon either.