Need help kicking vicodin habit!!!

[Nissa83]

I have been abusing vicodin, percoset, oxys, anything I can find for 3 years, I'm up to 80-120mg per day. I took 80mg by 5:30pm Friday, didn't take any Saturday but flipped out on my husband in a panic attack and now he won't come home, woke up Sunday feeling like I was gonna day with all of what I know now are "normal" withdrawal symptoms, but stupid me just HAD to go out and seek 12 more 10mg vicodins, I took two today, of course I feel better...but here's the deal, I just started probation, I see my PO for the first time in 8 days and HAVE to be clean, I have a almost 5yr old daughter at home, a good job, and I don't want to lose everything!! I called a couple places today, one guy told me I need to go to treatment for a month, but how can I leave my job, my kid, my home for a MONTH? Then a lady said she'd sign me up for methadone clinic, sure my PO won't allow that! I could call my DR but he's clueless, I've been buying all my pills on the street for the last 3 years!!! WHAT DO I DO NOW???

[apike31108]

Nissa. I quit cold turkey starting Monday, Feb 13th. I took my last two Lortabs (30mg) Sunday, Feb 12th at around 9am. Today is my Day 8. I worked all of last week. I didn't want too, it was so hard to be here, but as you said you have to work. My boss as well is sick of me missing work, not knowing it's from being an addict needing to find pills. I worked all last week and thought it was the longest week of my life. I wanted to die. I hurt so bad, mentally I wanted to break down. Call your husband and apologize. He will come back. Thank god my fiance is a stay at home dad and has been wonderful and super supportive throughout all this. If I can do it you can. I know when people told me that I thought yeah right gimme a pill, but you can do it. You don't want to lose your child.

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  You just have to STOP!  Plain and simple.  It will be hard.  Really hard, but you are going to jail if you don't quit.  I've been there with probation, and always tested clean, because I cleaned up my act, but I saw lots of people there who didn't and they left the office in handcuffs.  

Get some Imodium.  It will help.  Don't take any more opiates.  NONE!  Throw out all you have.  It's the only way.  

I'm sorry you're going through this!

[vicki595]

In what way did you "violently attack" your husband?  You can't do that and that is reason enough to stop this madness right now.

Are they doing a urine test in 10 days? We can't tell you how to pass it but I think it's safe to tell you that if you stop the pills now, you'll be fine.

[Nissa83]

Ok, here I am at work, and I can't stop crying and I really don't feel like I should be here. I haven't really completely quit yet, I took one 10mg in the middle of the night and half of one this morning. I can't beg my husband to come home, he won't!!! I am sooooooo scared of losing my daughter.

[Nissa83]

ok i'll try to get some, thank you

[littlebit667]

Imodium (liquid is best)!  Esp. if you are trying to work.