Relapse? Day 1.....again.

[Secondguess]

So I got into the habit of taking two tab 10s every night for the past three nights. Although it's a huge improvement from my 10-15 per day, I still feel guilty. So this is my third Day 1. Sobriety, why are you so difficult to attain? However; I'm trying to stay positive. I'm able to wake in the morning and go to work, functioning like a normal person. It's at night when my cravings get really bad. Reading, writing, playing music, etc. Nothing is working anymore. I've been thinking of just knocking myself out with a bottle of nyquil around 9pm every night in order to sleep through the cravings. I'm half serious.....

[Kendraerika]

The first 48 are the hardest. I tried 5 times, and couldn't get past 24 hours, but the 6th time I did it. Im on day 6, and it feels so good. If you are going to use nyquil, benedryl or something like that, it wil help, but you cannot take a pill with them. Every bit if sleep you get erl help you feel better the next day. If you are lying there unable to sleep, hey up for a bit, read a book, then go back to sleep. Good luck, you can do it.

[littlebit667]

That is true ricart70.  Coming here to post when craving seems to really help some!  You might try that!

[ricart70]

There is only one way out of this and it is not easy.I hope you can make it this time.We are here but we never seem to know until after you have relapsed.

[littlebit667]

LOL, I understand completely.  I started taking a bath and going to bed at 9pm everynight just to avoid the evening...WANNAS!  I was getting up at 6 every morning....shoot before that was when I was going to sleep!  You can do it!!!

[Ann2497]

You need to end your relationship with your dealer.