How to deal with the cravings for Hydrocodone?

[newbie_girl]

I am currently on my 11th day without Hydrocodone after about a 2 year habit of 7-8 10/325mg per day. I made it through the horrible part of the physical withdrawals but my cravings are very severe in addition to me having no energy. I am in the healthcare field and somehow still fell victim to this horrible drug. I want so bad to be done with this and return to being the wife and mother I use to be before I got hooked on these pills. I've been lurking around this site for the past few weeks and finally decided to post ad I have no one else to turn too. No one knows about my addiction!!!  I have an appointment scheduled next week with my Doctor and I know he'll give me another Rx and I had no intentions on going but the closer the date comes the more I doubt myself. I just need some advice on how to not give in to my cravings. The pills are all I can think about. Good luck to everyone that is battling this horrible addiction and I will continue you all in my prayers!!!!

[newbie_girl]

Hi tyguy83!!! All is well on my end. Still fighting these unbearable cravings. This is so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. I finally came to the realization that I am indeed an addict. This is one of the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with mentally. I am so determined not to fall back in love with those pills. My appt is Friday and though I haven't had the courage to cancel it yet I don't have any plans on going. Please keep in touch and let me know how things are progressing for you.

[tyguy83]

Hey newbie, how are you doing today?

[gnarly_1]

Hi...well as you can see your still a addict without the pills the craving are very real your not respable for the craving but you are responsible for your reaction to it...the desire to get clean must excide the desire to get high  aftercare is a nissaity it is not optional with it you can learn to respond rather then react it only takes a few minutes to blow it but in reality relapse start days ahead of actual use I tryed most every type of aftercare but it wasent till I hit the rooms of N/A that real growth and strength came  I cannot over empasize how important this is  it is a simple 12 step program google N/A meeting in your aera  if it works for a old dope fiend like me it will work for any one that is honest with them selves ...Gnarly

[jifmoc]

This is to both of you: you guys are so so early in being clean. At 11 days and 2 days clean you are both still detoxing! I beg of both of you to realize that after how many years of using, you can't expect to feel good in a week! We have such little patience: we wanna feel better now! That's so typical of addicts; we can stand discomfort.

Aftercare is an absolute must.That's when sobriety will start feeling better. The no energy will pass, you have to be patient. Many still are detoxing after 30 days. We abused our bodies a lot, we have to let them regulate. Do not trust your thoughts. That is just your addict brain trying to get you to use. Then guess what, the cycle continues. Then it's 10 years later. Trust the folks that came before you.

[newbie_girl]

Thank you so much for your response. It feels good to know that someone is with me on this journey. I am so tired of obsessing about these pills, all day everday. I am going to try my best not to go to my appointment and pray the same for you. We have come too far to start from scratch now!!! I did pick up some L- tyrosine this morning and I'll take my first dose in the morning. Its suppose to boost energy and I'll let you know if it helps. I will continue to pray that we overcome this addiction demon in the very near future. Please stay in touch and let me know how things are going!

[tyguy83]

Hey newbie,

I am about 2 days behind you from exactly the same usage and duration. The physical side of things has seemed to end for me, but I am right there with you with the constant cravings. Its all I think about, every morning and every night; or even before anything I do. I also have a Dr appointment in a week where I know I will get another refill, and I have no idea what to do. I am hoping by that point I will not feel the need for pills and I will cancel the appointment, or maybe postpone it; however I dont have the strength to cancel it.

Do you have anybody around you that knows what you are dealing with? Have you been to any meetings or groups? I have a "sponsor" that is an old friend of mine who has been through this, to a much worse extent, who has been helping me through it. I havent been to any meetings, even though every single person on this site who has been kind enough to reach out to me, insists that its one of the only ways to maintain the sobriety.

I will be totally honest with you, I have no idea if I am going to stop using. I haven't lost my job, got busted, lost anybody close to me, or anything like you hear what happens to addicts, but something in my life is missing. I think that is what I am looking for because I am really tired of counting pills, and looking at the calendar checking when my next appointment is so I can get another refill.

So far, we have proved that we dont NEED those pills to survive, and we can maintain without them. I think we can both celebrate the steps we have taken so far and the time we've spent clean. The next step is proving to ourselves that life is better without them; I am not at that point yet either. I don't know what I am going to do about my next Dr appointment in 7 days, but I hope that I make a decision soon. I want so bad for something to click in my head that proves things are better sober, I want the same for you too. This is my first time coming off pills, so maybe that part doesn't ever really happen, and its just wishful thinking, but its what I am hoping for.

I dont know if any of that is going to help, or if that is going to make things worse; I know its not the best response. I just wanted to let you know where I am, so maybe you feel better that you are not alone with your struggles.

Stay on here, stay in touch. Don't go through this alone, because you are not alone. We are only 3 days apart from our journey, lets do this together.

-ty