Aa
One week clean
One whole precious week. I have accomplished more this week than I have in 5 years of using. I know I still have a long way too go and a lot more to accomplish and some times it feels overwhelming because I am getting pressured but wow, I am pretty proud of myself. I took care of the financials and got them off my back for now. I can answer my phone again.
I am very slowly lookiing at the mess my house is in and trying hard to do a little bit at a time. I put out weeks worth of garbage the other night. My house doesn't smell like kitty litter anymore
Oh, I have so much to do yet but I am doing something every day and every night I feel so sore and beat up but proud of what I accomplished.
I hate waking up this early but it goes with getting clean. Sore, tired, weak and all, I am one day closer to feeling better and getting my life back.
I had strong cravings last night but didn't think of using. I just ran to the store and bought cookies and a chocolate bar. It really worked. Using was not an option.
I am very slowly lookiing at the mess my house is in and trying hard to do a little bit at a time. I put out weeks worth of garbage the other night. My house doesn't smell like kitty litter anymore
Oh, I have so much to do yet but I am doing something every day and every night I feel so sore and beat up but proud of what I accomplished.
I hate waking up this early but it goes with getting clean. Sore, tired, weak and all, I am one day closer to feeling better and getting my life back.
I had strong cravings last night but didn't think of using. I just ran to the store and bought cookies and a chocolate bar. It really worked. Using was not an option.
We are all worried honey and want you to do this! You couldnt have said it better when you said "trying this my way just doesnt work" BINGO! I had to figure that out too because all those relapses I had, I did it MY way and didnt think I needed help, or support or anything. Boy was I wrong!
Your going to be fine Pat! I know you are...Well be here for you Before your appt on Monday AND after!!
Your going to be fine Pat! I know you are...Well be here for you Before your appt on Monday AND after!!
Thanks so much my sweet friends.
Your support just makes me stronger.
I know I have relapsed many times and that is why ImDone and Vicki are pushing me lol. They are worried about me and I am worried too at times.
I am terrified of using again. So terrified that I am going to go see the addiction counselor. I am really afraid of doing that but the fear of using again has outweighed the fear of admitting my problem to a complete stranger. I really wish it wasn't a group setting and I know I am going to be on here for support on Monday before my appointment but I have to do it to remain clean. I am so tired of trying to do this my way. It just doesn't work.
Your support just makes me stronger.
I know I have relapsed many times and that is why ImDone and Vicki are pushing me lol. They are worried about me and I am worried too at times.
I am terrified of using again. So terrified that I am going to go see the addiction counselor. I am really afraid of doing that but the fear of using again has outweighed the fear of admitting my problem to a complete stranger. I really wish it wasn't a group setting and I know I am going to be on here for support on Monday before my appointment but I have to do it to remain clean. I am so tired of trying to do this my way. It just doesn't work.
Hey Pat, a huge congratulations, I know this has been a big long struggle for you and I am proud of you!!!!! Keep going and don't give up. You are a dear and fine person and you deserve everything good.
Meegan
Meegan
HI Pat just wanted to chim in and say congrats on a week clean your off to a great start push forward with the consoling the pills are just a small part of whats really going on it will help keep you clean good luck and God bless..........Gnarly
Oh Sara
How wondeful is that. That just warmed my heart. I slept with John's favourite shirt forever. I wear it sometims now around the house when I feel bad and want to feel close to him.
That is such a beautiful idea and what a thoughtful daugher you have.
How wondeful is that. That just warmed my heart. I slept with John's favourite shirt forever. I wear it sometims now around the house when I feel bad and want to feel close to him.
That is such a beautiful idea and what a thoughtful daugher you have.
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The only advice I can give is to just keep moving forward! I know I say that over and over again! Some days it will be very small things, other days it will be huge tasks! You will get through all of this in your own time! Don't let yourself get overwhelmed! For me, it is so easy to do, and that is when I crave the worst!
Take care my dear friend! I'm behind you all the way no matter what you chose! I know you will choose and clean, happy, and healthy life! You are well on your way!