Online Aftercare

[Junip]

Hi Everyone,

I have not posted for some time because I have been going through a rough patch. In any case, I am ready to attempt c/t again and wanted the name of the online site that is similar to N/A. I recall reading about it but forgot the name. I will be attending a local weekly meeting but need more than that. As the sole provider for my family due to my husband's disability, my work schedule is crazy and as a producer I really do not get time off. Plus I have my 5 year-old twins so it is tough. I am by NO MEANS saying that my health, recovery and after-care is not critical and worth the time, it is just that I NEED my job and also have so much at home so I want to have another option that will provide support with flexibility.  Thanks everyone.  

JJ

[Junip]

We are in this together, girl!  It has been so great texting and being there for one another.  We got this!

[leahlee18]

You and me both JJ!  We start tmr, no more pills!  I also registered for SMART recovery.  I want to have some aftercare also and doing it online will be really convenient.  Lets do this!

[Junip]

Thank you so much, as always,  for your awesome advice and support.  I am going to check out the online NA site tonight and already registered on SMART today. I totally hear you; I have been on these pills too long and it has been 5 years of taking them in varying dosages. The past year has been so up and down and I have done really well at times but nothing is good enough but staying off them 100%. I hear you on the job stress; while my job is definitely stressful it is also very rewarding because I get to help people.  I think my root issues are more with trying to please my family and friends and stepchildren and I have to start realizing that I can only control what I can control. I know I am a good person and I have to let that be enough for me. Kicking this habit will certainly make me feel better about myself!  I have to just suck it up and get through the detox and then focus on all of the positives in my life and maybe start exercising as a new focus!    Always wanted great abs so why not make that my new addition :-). Thank you again; this site is truly a lifesaver. I will be posting like a banshee through detox so get ready for me, friends!!  Thank you!

[gnarly_1]

Hey girl  sorry to here about your relapse I had my share but have been able to put a little over 5yrs with N/a  for a old dope fiend like me it takes 4 meetings a week  now N/a has a website with meetings on line it is not  to replace the regular meeting  but to aid someone like you in having extra...  now im computer inept so I got my user name  my password  but was unable to check it out   go figure I going to have one of my sons show me how but they both work and always find a reason they cant come over  I really want to check this out  just  use bing as your search engine and you will find it  let me know how it is  any way my stance on relapse is it is more of a ''mind screw'' then anything  you feel like a utter failure  it shames you and your disease will tell you you cant do this  DONT RECEIVE THAT!! it is a lye when your in new recovery you need to work on the root issues  I was in furniture sales for 25yrs  and the pressure of the job and my own addictive behavior pushed me to use if I wasent number1 in sales  I was a utter failure in my mind even though I was still in the 5 % that wrote over a million a year it was the unrealistic goals I set for myself  watch your self for this any way the detox is the ez part it is what it does to you mentally that will keep you down  keep posting for support  I also think Smart recovery has a website you may want to check that out as well  right now your head is in the right place  that God that you weren't out there for 2yrs rather then 2 weeks keep us posted.........Gnarly  

[Cricketk92]

It must be hard having them right there in the house!  I would have a hard time with that too!!!  But you need to talk with him and get him to lock them up again!  I think even though he may be disappointed he will still be there for you!  Have you decided on a quit date yet?  No lie...it will be hard the first week!  But you can do it!!!  Im so glad that you found the Saturday meeting!  I actually went on to the AA site after I posted it to you and went to the 130 meeting!  Its definitely not the same as being "there" but it was still good!!!  Youll have to go check it out!!!  Please try not to feel like a failure....it happens!  Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again!!!  You can do it!!!!  I am here anytime you need to talk or vent!  Send me a PM if you want and Ill get back to you!  I usually have med help open all day at work so Im around a lot!  Hang in there!!!  :)

[Junip]

Thanks for the link!

[Junip]

Karen,

I am so happy to see you doing so well!  It has been very inspiring.   I have a Saturday night NA group that is closed and I am comfortable with but I need more. I want this more than anything but it is SO hard because the meds are in my home. I bought my husband another safe and he has not used it so I found his pills again and started on a higher dosage again when I had been doing so well (had tapered to 1.5 10/325 percs per day). I should have listened to everyone here and jumped then but I didn't.  I learned my lesson. I am so sick and tired of this monkey on my back. I will definitely be posting through detox because I NEED the help. I am taking 60mg OxyCotin and 2-3 10/325 currently (for past 2-3 weeks) so I know it will be more uncomfortable than if I had jumped before. I feel so ashamed and like a total failure with no control. I also have to tell my husband again because I need him to lock up the meds and while he has been very supportive thus far i know he will be disappointed in me and he still does not understand addiction.  He does not understand why i search for the pills and he sees me being a great mom and I just got the biggest bonus of my life, far more than I ever expected so he knows I am successful and committed to work and family and I guess thinks this should be easy for me, too. I just feel really down.

[Cricketk92]

Here is the link!  http://www.aaonline.net/  I think I am going to use this too!!!!  :)

[Junip]

That was it! Thank you so much. I am reaching out TODAY.

[Cricketk92]

Hey you!  Glad to hear that you are OK and that you are getting clean!  Its so great that you have a meeting plan already.... for some reason I recall someone on here saying that there are AA or NA meetings online too!  Im sure someone will come along with that info if it is something I remember correctly.... This old brain has a hard time lately with memory!!!!  I hear you about the time constraints!  I work 4am-1230pm so meetings are hard to findthat fit into my "awake" schedule!!!  I go to 3 on the weekends and also go to counseling and group once a week.  We have to do what we can for aftercare cause its so important!!!  I also just have one income so I cant depend on anyone elses either....  Sounds like you are in a good mindset!  Let us know when you start your detox so we can sheer you along!!!!  Be Well!  Karen

[jugglin]

Hi there and welcome back!  Keep trying girl.  Glad you are getting back on the horse so to speak.:)  I think you are referring to SMART recovery which is online and many here have found great help with the program.
Keep fighting!