this is harder then i remember

[girlwithbrokensoul]

im coming off loratab 10s atleast 6 to 10 a day and i have been clean before but this time seems sooooo much harder!!!!  would it be ok if i took xanax or something for about 5 days or will it just set me back on getting through the withdraws?   im about to go crazy,  im being so short with my son and i hate being like this and im only on day 2.  

[phiaNorcoqueen]

don't be to hard on yourself, as i know this is a very real and very mental part of addiction .. The cravings feel like they will never end.. And that is why we have to always be on guard..  

  And i know what you mean by just needing to really keep yourself occupied and just writing whatever comes into your mind.. And sometimes thats not to pretty or polite.. But hey it is a therapeutic release..   i know it has helped me and so many others on here..  Oh and by the way i too used to have that fear about getting hurt,or needing dental work , or surgery and needing pain meds,  That is kind of a way our brains are thinking of a way that we might be able to get pills.. i know that may sound weird, But our mind is a very powerful thing, So just try not to pay those thoughts any mind..  As the mental part does get easier.. I'm not saying they go away altogether but it gets easier..   I'm on day 50 and i still find myself thinking about them.. Even if i have a doc appt i start thinking of a way that i may be able to get some pain meds and i hate that i think like that .. But i know i can't trust myself and i have to have somebody go with me .. Just a litte reassurance ..   But just keep on the straight and narrow path it will get easier..  i know in the midst of the w/d's it feels as though it never will end, and i thought i would die at times and you know  at about day 7 i was able to take short walks not saying i liked them but i did it..  and you know 50 days later i fell so much better ,  I still have some bad days but who doesn't???  Anyways hang in there and stay strong my friend ,  THIS TOO SHALL PASS..

talk to you soon and inbox me anytime
Sophai

[girlwithbrokensoul]

Today is my day 3 I messed up and took a 7.5 3 days ago but i woke up and tried again and I'm honestly doing good today.  I went to work!! I'm a waitress and I was busy and  kept a smile on my face.  The fast pace really did help me I most def didn't wanna go but it was worth it other then this sweating mess.  I felt soooo nasty all night I even sprayed hairspray under my arms!  Lol. A old stripper told me it worked and it did! I can't sleep I took a xanax the first night but I stopped cause it made me feel very down and as crazy as this might sound I wanted a loratab to reverse the affect but I just went to sleep.  I'm sure I will doze off right around the time I have to get my son up for school...  Lord knows the struggle we all go through just to feel normal.  I have a FEAR that something might happen like I might hurt myself or need dental work I always took pills cause I wanted to get high and I'm scared now that I hate them so much something could happen and I would be doomed for life ! I slept a lil last night and dreamed about pills and in my dream I kept telling myself NOOO I was so relieved when I woke up.  Is that crazy, or even maybe normal.  Since yesterday I have been craving sex I don't know if its cause I just want to feel something other then this or what cause I had been in a slump not wanting any at all for months!  I shouldn't talk about that I guess but that's what I'm going through. I can't stop eating and thats a good thing but I just worry that I'm being self destructive or I guess my brain signals are off and I'm just craving SOMETHING. I'm bored wide awake and nothing on tv so I'm over thinking everything.  I do that, I could ruin a wet dream from all my over analizing. Tomorrow is day 4 and I have plans on walking with a couple girls I work with. To my knowledge they don't do pills but these days u can't never tell. Thinking about how a pill can completly change ur life and turn it upside down makes me so mad. Sometimes people do need help with pain but the docs around here are the biggest drug dealers.  They write scripts way too easy and I just hope and pray with all my heart that my son don't grow up and get hooked on ANYTHING cause like grandma said its only getting worse!  Its bad now I can't imagine the temptations of the world in 10 years. Its sad and scary.ok so imjust typing whatever comes into my head at this point so I'm going to stop while I'm ahead cause aint no tellin where that could lead!  Thank yall for caring! I know its not smart to read withdraw stories b4 u go cold turkey cause even though I have done it b4 I was shaken and even more scared but its nice to be able to talk about ur clean days. Gives me strength!

[phiaNorcoqueen]

well i just wanted to say that you are doing the right thing in wanting to get clean.. And also coming to the right place for help we will do anything to help you..  Support is everything in recovery,  and yes you are in the worse part of you d/t i now am on day 48 of 15 a day norco habit for about 6-7 years.. (Not good) but i have to say gabapentin helped so much with the withdrawals i had them it was just extremely mild.. like i was sick or something..  I was tired at first maybe the first 3 days none of that wanting to jump out of you skin feeling.. But what i did have was the leg cramps but it really wasn't the norm restlessness that one would experience.. I took probably 12 hot epson salt baths a day and loved it.. What was hard for me was getting up and out of the house to go for walks but i did and you know what i noticed is that the more i did it the more i wanted to walk.. And before long my body was needing it.. So just know that the light at the end of the dark agonizing tunnel is just ahead and hand in there..   (This Too Shall Pass)  and as for the xanax i never had them before but i do know all about them i would say it is ok to take them only if its going to be for a couple of day through the worsed part of the w/d's .. And maybe right before bed to promote sleep.. well good luck and i am here for you if you need anything you can inbox me anytime

Sophia

[Heide4277]

Hi there,  I have never had a substance addiction problem, but  I suffer from severe panic attacks and take Xanax only when absolutely necessary.  I would not recommend trading off substances right now if you know what I mean.  Cut them all off cold turkey.  I promise you it will get easier every day.  30 days is always a time frame to consider when starting or stopping ANY habit.  Go to your local health food or vitamin store where there is a knowledgable nutritionist, tell them exactly what your going through and they will tell you what you can take naturally.  Trust me these people love what they do and they are far from judgemental. Also if you feel up to it take brisk walks everyday and exert your energy it will help you sleep better.  When you have a bad day and feel down just go with it and know that tomorrow will be better. Don't waist your time beating yourself up.  I hope this helps.  You will be in my thoughts and prayers :)

[texaslady68]

I do not think it would hurt to take the xanax, as long as you have never had an addiction to benzos.   I am 64 days clean from Norco 12 a day and my doctor put me on xanax last month due to severe panic attacks I was having.  It is a very low dose, and i only take them when i need them which isnt every day.   I had some that I took during withdrawal and they really helped me.  

If you do take them, break them in half unless they are already a low dose.  

[IwillDoThis]

Hi - I've been away for two weeks so just trying to get caught back up on board.  I tapered down from 4 hydros per day down to one then jumped off and went through 3-4 days of h$ll - sounds like you are in the thick of it so just try to push through.  Lots of hot showers, immodium as needed and ride it out.  If you are not taking xanax I wouldn't start - some people say it really helped them but xanax is a nasty drug and I'm still weening myself off it (but I was already on it for years).  You stated you cannot be a casual user so for this reason I wouldn't suggest swapping out the xans.

I'm here for a few hours so if you have any specific questions just ask.  I'm 28 days TODAY and I'd like to tell you that if I did it, you can if you set your mind to it and just stick with your decision.  I remember on my 3, 4, 5 days just wishing I could hurry up and get to day 28, 29, 30 and here I am.  I feel SO much better, I'm not having the pain I envisioned, I'm clearer,  my sex life is coming back - it is all so worth it - I promise!

Hang in there!

[Shauna13]

Push yourself, for your son, and most importantly, for you. I dont know anything about xanex other than the horror stories ive read about wd, and all the deaths in the celebrety world...what has been my saviour, though is gabapentin (nuerontin as its branded). Can you talk to your dr about getting something to ease your wd symptoms? I feel your pain i know the bizarre stuck on a treadmill going nowhere, not wanting to get up, but cant stay still long enough to go back to sleep, have a family and home to run, but cant seem to pull it together inside to be productive hell on earth you are going through, and my heart goes out to you. Please keep posting....this is an amazing place of support. I probably would have manipulated some dr somewhere to give me a new scrript, or lied to my dr as to why i need my refik early (again) if it werent for my friends here. Done it before....but never had the support beforeveither. I promise you, having support makes all the difference in the world. You mentioned your mom....would she be willing to take your son for a few days so you can finish detoxing? Or even better, come stay for a few days with you? You hang in there, stay strong, post often, take 87 hot baths each day if you need to, go out walking, fresh air does help, but you have to give youself a kick in the butt to get out the door lol....experience speaking....huggs.    S

[Imdone12]

The Xanax wouldn't hurt if you only take it to get you through the first few days. For me I took Ativan and it really helped but only for a few days. I picked up a few to help me get through the next few day tomorrow will be day 1 for me and I plan on taking the xanax at night when I need it.

[girlwithbrokensoul]

and i dant have any xanax but my mama does and she see what im going through so she offered to give me some i just dont no if i should take them or just let it take its course.

[girlwithbrokensoul]

im on day 2 and i was clean for about 9 months and been back on them since aug and just thought i could be a casual user and was absalut;y wrong. i have always had some real bad mood swings and anxiaty but i stayed doped up so much i didnt realize while i was on them.  my withdraw symtoms are not really as bad as some i have read on here but i just have this uneasy dont wanna get up dont wanna lay down sad knot in my stomach.  i just feel really weird!

[bama88]

what day of detox are you on? you stated you've been clean before.  how long were you clean? how long have you been abusing tan this time? what's the worst withdrawl symptom your battling? do you have anxiety issues that were covered by the opiates? why did you go back on pills? do you have xianex?

sorry if i am asking lot of questions...im just looking for information to help you...i detoxed off of oxycontin in November. jumped from 120+ mgs....i want to help you..i will support you...you've got a friend in bama

[girlwithbrokensoul]

is there anything?  i am percribed calodapin .05 but i dont have the money to go to the doc.  im having a hard time and i dont want to mess up but im about to go crazy!  im not having any real bad wd symtoms other then my nerves and some chills every now and then but these nerves have my stomach in a knot like im about to nut up!

[kk1303]

I wouldn't take xanex unless you are prescribed it. You don't want to replace one addiction for another. Xanex is addictive.