Oxycontin detoxing but no withdrawal symptoms?

[Newabuser]

Hello all, I'm brand new here and found this site just yesterday. I've been abusing Oxycontin 20's for about 6 months now but the well ran dry 3 days ago. I was taking 2 to 3 per day and biting them in half to bypass the time release. I haven't had any in almost a full 72 hours and so far there's been virtually no symptoms whatsoever.

I'm not substituting anything to take the edge off with the exception of one 350mg "Soma" taken before bed to help with the potential insomnia. I have to be honest here, I'm actually upset that I'm not suffering because now I'm starting to feel like I can quit anytime I want with no side effects. I can get a refill in 4 days if I want to and I'm now starting to think "why not, quitting is no problem".

Anyway, is this in any way normal, to not experience anything by now? Was my abuse at too low of a level to have an effect on me? Is it possible that something will yet hit me? I was expecting to be climbing the walls by now but so far it's been nothing.  

[Newabuser]

Well, "the talk" didn't happen. I got home from work and there waiting for me was a brand new refilled bottle of 90 - 20mg oxy's. She had to run to the drugstore during the day so she dropped the prescription off and they refilled it on the spot, 2 days early. She asked me to count them (they were all there) and then stash them in the garage.

I know what everyone is going to say and you're probably right but I agreed to do it. I'm going to prove to myself that these have no hold on me. Just to update everyone on the withdrawal issue, it's now been 5 full days with no symptoms other than a few chills yesterday. I'm still a bit of a wreck mentally but that's more because of my guilt over my betrayal of her. I think that actually might help though, I'm not going to let myself down like that again. The talk is still going to happen by the way, it has to, I just don't know when.

So, what's the concensus, am I fooling myself? Is it inevitable that I'm going to pinch one eventually? It might not seem like much but I've had them in my posession for 6 hours now and I haven't even considered taking one. I know I can't be "cured" in the 5 days that I've been off of them but it sure feels that way right now.

I'll keep you posted as to how this works and believe me, if I fail and even start to think about taking one I'll let you know. Any idea of what the odds of success might be? I have to believe that they're fairly low.

[vicki595]

There ARE ramifications and you're feeling it right now!  It may not be physical but that "lower than a snake's belly" feeling is awful and you won't ever forget THAT!  Look,
you didn't kill anyone here. You lied. She's lied to you I'm sure. We all lie. He,she and it lie!!    You'll feel much better after "the talk"...

I completely agree with Sara here.  No counting and monitoring pills together as a check and balance. It won't work. I can think of a couple of ways to get around that ( and be sneaky ) just off the top of my head!!    You really need a third party to help with this. I'm sure you don't want to ask anyone but this is important.

Let us know how it all goes tonight---

[dominosarah]

Try to not beat yourself up so bad.  You are making some positive changes in your life now.

[Newabuser]

Thanks trdofbeingtrd. My wife and I are two peas in a pod. Over the years we've both done our share of forgiving but nothing quite as serious as this. This is the first time that either of us has flat out lied to the other and it really is an outright betrayal of her trust on my part. It ranks pretty high on the "cause for divorce" scale in my eyes. What's going to continue to eat away at me though is that I know she's not going to see it that way. She'll brush it off like it was nothing and tell me not to worry about it.

That's going to bother me forever. Hopefully Thursday goes as anticipated and going forward I can remain clean but I'm always going to look back on this and wonder why I really didn't suffer much. Sure, the last few days have been rough mentally and I'm certain there'll be some tough periods ahead but when a person sinks as low as I have, there should be some ramifications.

[dominosarah]

I dont think it is a very good idea to have you even look at those pills, let alone count them.  They have a way of calling our name, actually it is more like screaming.  Coming clean to your wife will take a huge weight off your shoulders.  Right now you have to take care of your addiction.  Your wife will have to take care of hers.  Hopefully she will see what is going on with her too.   Keep us posted on how it goes after you talk with her~~~~~~sara

[trdofbeingtrd]

It will be hard, but if you and your wife are able to stay cool with each other, and be strong, be there to support each other, than it could work.

If you look her in the eyes, and she looks you in the eyes, and you both feel love, you both know what is best for both of you, then it should work.

Both of you need to be open, and honest. It's possible, but I would suggest bailing on that plan the instant (IF) you two start having major issues over this. Regardless of if you do it or not, therapy might really help both of you. People who seek help and want the best for the other person, are more likely to make it and succeed.

I wish the best for both of you.