PLEASE HELP ME! ASAP PLEASE I FEEL SO ALONE

[mommyof32b]

So I am 22 years old and I am going to be 34 weeks pregnant tomorrow, with my 3rd child. With my first 2 I did not have a problem with drugs or anything and I have always had my kids in my care and I love them very much as well as I love the one I am pregnant with now. With this pregnancy, before I found out I was pregnant I had gotten into a problem with heroin and when I found out I was pregnant with this one I stopped immediately. Well sooner than later I started using again (I do not shoot it up I just snort it)

I need help. I have read so many stories about babies going through withdrawal in utero, and I was so terrified, that I just kept doing the drug. I have never upped it, but I did try to decrease my dose (which is just 1 pill a day that I separate to last all day, I do not get high I just do it to not be sick)

I have not told my doctor about this problem, but I am so afraid I'm going to get my daughter taken away. I feel so alone and so scared. My fiancé is the ONLY person who knows I have been doing this and he has a bad problem with It himself.

I have tried many times during my pregnancy to get off of this drug, but I feel my baby move around as if she's having seizures and I honestly believe she was having withdrawals from the drug so I just kept the dose regular the entire pregnancy so I didn't hurt her.

I feel so alone, and I am crying and in tears as I write this post. I love my children. I AM a good mother. I did not come here to be judged but to get help. I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and I just DON'T KNOW HOW TO TELL HIM ABOUT THIS. Please help me. PLEASE.

I don't know what to do! How to help me and my baby, and how to not get her taken away. I have kept all of this in for so so long and now I just can't take it anymore. I know I need help, I know it. I just want my baby to be okay, and to be able to come home with me and without any of my or his family members knowing what I've been doing this entire time.

Please help me, I'll do anything for help and answers.

[mommyof32b]

Sorry everyone that I've kept you waiting who have been concerned and helping me with this issue of mine. I've had a long and emotional day, then had some family over and made dinner for the in-laws. Anyways, I DID tell my doctor. And what a relief it was! The weird thing was, is that he told me he's honestly never had to deal with a patient with this problem before...which shocked me. He told me that I just took the first step by telling him and being honest. He was very supportive, did not pass any judgment, and told me that since it was 3:30 in the afternoon it was a little too late for him to be able to help me today, which surprisingly I was okay with, (I'm guessing that since I told him and got that off my chest that's why I was okay with it) he said he was going to call a clinic tomorrow and try and get me into a program that accepts my insurance, and try and get me on methadone, (which I hope not, because I don't know anything about that, and coming off of the heroin with) and he said then have me taper off of the methadone once the baby is born. I did tell him that I did not want her to be taken away, and what worried me is that he never said she would be, and never said she wouldn't be taken either. But I'm thinking that everything will be okay since I opened up and was honest. I can't thank you all enough.  I will definitely be keeping you all updated about what he's going to do to help me, I'm so excited that I got it off my chest and that I'm getting the help I need for me and my daughter....my newest sweet baby girl.

[newoutlook12]

I hope everything is going ok with you!  Let us know what's going on we are here for you even if you didn't tell the doctor yet!

[newoutlook12]

How'd things go at your appointment honey?  Wanted to check on you

[Krissy_123]

Goodluck!! You're doing the right thing! We bring our babies into this world small and defensless, it's our job to protect them....that's what you will do today!! xox praying for you!

[mommyof32b]

I have to leave in about 45 minutes to an hour...my appointment is at 315

[newoutlook12]

I would love to be able to talk to you right now so sorry if I don't get the chance to I'm actually at my doctors appointment right now, how long do you have before you have to leave?