What type of powder comes in folded pieces of paper?

[Sunshine_88]

That may sound like an odd question, but I found a small piece of paper folded up on the kitchen floor. It sitting by my boyfriend's jacket which was hanging on the back of a chair. I picked up the folded piece of paper and opened it. Inside was some grayish white powder. When I showed it to my boyfriend he told me it was aspirin. I told him that it looked suspicious, and that we have plenty of aspirin up stairs in the bathroom. He laughed and said, naw it's aspirin. My radar instantly went up. I didn't argue with him about it because I felt like it wasn't going to get me truthful answers. Sometimes he does have mood swings, but blames it on PTSD because he is a war veteran. I notice that he'll act moody sometimes, then leave to go to a neighbor's house. When he comes back home, he'll run upstairs to bedroom, and then I hear him opening one the dresser drawers. I always thought his behavior was very strange, so one day when he wasn't home I went through his dresser draw. I found many pieces of small folded up papers in back. One of them again had that strange looking powder in it. Every weekend he has to go "hang out" at a friend's house. I never go with him because these friends like to drink, smoke (marijuana), and sit around talking about who slept with who. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, or sleep around. I never have, and that's why I don't socialize with his "friends". I recently told my boyfriend that he acts like a whole different person sometimes especially when he comes back from hanging with his friends. I also told him that he acts like he's on something sometimes. He also has to tell me a different story everyday about how some woman in the store, at the train station, at the library etc. was giving him the eye, told him how good he looked, or tried to inappropriately touch him. I'm tired of his lying and his hyper sexual stories. I hear them everyday. He also joined a program that supposed to be helping him with his drinking. Just this past week I found two empty bottles of methadone recently prescribed to him in the back of a kitchen cabinet. I don't know how or if I should confront him about it because I feel he'll just lie to me about. He wants us to get married. He even bought me a ring last month and wants me to wear. I keep it the ring box and carry it around with me because I'm not sure if I want to marry him. His lying, and having to be gone for hours at time sometimes has me feeling a lot of untrust towards him. I love him and wonder if I can ever really trust him again.

[Paulie621]

The powder substance in a folded piece of paper is heroin. If you are seeing mood swings and then they go away with him going in that dresser, where he keeps all the heroin, then that's most likely because he was feeling withdrawal and needed some heroin to feel better. As a recovering addict myself I can tell you that while using we are some of the best liars and manipulators out there. If you want the truth confront him about it in a way where you can be non judge mental and be willing to offer him help with the addiction. It is very hard for an addict to admit that he has a problem and is probably more ashamed and hates it more than you know. But if he wants help he has to do it for himself and not for something or someone else. Because if he's not doing it for himself he's not gonna stay sober. Just try to understand it is very hard to overcome and it is a long process. Read up on other addicts stories, go to Alanon meetings and listen to what other people have dealt with you'll be surprised how similar it is. Good luck

[Sunshine_88]

Thank you Pauline621. Your comment answered some of the questions I have on my mind.

[jifmoc]

You are welcome. So happy to hear you are researching meetings, yay!

[jifmoc]

Hi, Sunshine, welcome. Yup, you've read the signs correctly. I am VERY happy to hear that you are not making excuses for him, that's great. White powder folded up in paper could be coke or heroin for starters (that aspirin response is absolutely ridiculous.) It doesn't matter what substance it is.  What matters is he is behaving like an addict, and you find it intolerable (which you should!)

Firstly, go to an alanon meeting in your area. You will find that tons of others are going through this, and by going to meetings, you will get support and clarity. Next, stop accusing him or talking about it. It's just words to him; he's only thinking of how not get caught, he'll say anything.

You need to remember that YOU are the most important person. You need and deserve trust, honesty and to be with someone who is not killing themselves w/ drugs. Go to alanon, start talking w/ others, and the answers will come.

[Sunshine_88]

Hi jifmoc. Thanks so much for your advice. I'm going to search online right now for alanon meetings in my area.