Positive stories or affirmations ?

[Enuffisenough]

So we are all here, misrable, hating detox, relapsing etc. how about we write something positive. Could be anything, from clean time, to a realization that helped quit . Successful stories, positive outcomes and easy withdrawals..... Lets try . Lets try.
" Affirmations, as they apply to persons in recovery, are used to change negative, self-serving and egotistical thoughts. ... Feeling unworthy is rocket fuel for addiction." Find what led us to use and forgive ourselves , those that hurts us, and let it go. Move on, they have.....

[Dane74]

Well, for me it all started out since childhood due to a lifetime of surgeries.  I think about it now and as i child i suffered withdrawals and at that time didn't have a clue as to what that even was.  I dabbled in the pills all prescribed as a teen but was always able to just stop when the RX was out.  As more years went on and more surgeries took place i was prescribed heavier narcotics and at higher doses and i realized my body was building up a tolerance.  But again once the script was out i was done.  To make a long story short, the last two surgeries have been a fight with these demons we call opiates.  I was able to successful taper off of all the opiates and did great and had zero mental issues, then 2 years later came and it was time for yet another surgery and this time i was put on even heavier crap Diluid, oxy, tram, norco, you name it i was giving it.  So after the surgery and rehab to get me back on my feet i was now taking more than prescribed not for the pain but for the high and energy.  Of course the added bonus of not feeling any pain either.  Well, thats when it turned into addiction for me and it happened  so fast.  Before i knew it i  was taking so many pills and BAM, i became a full blown addict and i couldn't stop and i was scared and i was in danger.  Not only was i a danger to myself i was a danger to my kids, i cant believe that i allowed my addiction to jeopardize my life and my kids i still feel like a fool to this day.  Then my fear really got to me as i would find myself passed out on the bathroom floor with a house full of teens, i mean what the hell was i thinking, i was a mess and had lost complete control and i was either going to wind up in jail or dead.  SO i finally realized i need help and i reached out on here and my friends all told me i need to go to rehab, well i fought that and was like no way in hell will i go there, well i actually listened to all these smart folks on here and confessed to my hubby that i needed help and off to 30 day inpatient i went. it was the best thing for me and i had learned so much.  I was actually clean for 10 months after my rehab and blew it on NEw years day like a complete idiot and i am still kicking myself for it, but i started over and here i am back to 3 weeks, but its ok i learned from it all, and I'm doing what i have to do.  Its still a struggle but i will take this life now than a day of using!!!!!  Using cant be an option anymore, all my secrets are out, and its time for me to face the  day to day challenges clean and i am working on that.  I am not by all means all happy go lucky, but i am alive and safe and my kids are safe and i am now a better person and in the end thats what matters most to me, being a good parent and wife........

[weaver71]

Wow Bob, an addict that like to do things extreme, imagine that.
If we use all the effort it takes to be a full time addict to anything, we can do it.

[Enuffisenough]

Amazing. If we put all the effort into the counting of pills, paying, wondering where getting them, etc, into getting clean, we would be SUCCESSFUL in a heartbeat. Interesting point that 110%. Thank you!!!
I can't wait to be at 180 days.

[Enuffisenough]

That is positive. And your positive helped me. And can help others. Thank you.

[Ben727]

Howdy. Former Lortab abuser here. Was on them for about ten years. Last two years I was taking 50-60 per day. That's a lot more than most people, but I tend to give 110% :) I'm at exactly six months clean tomorrow (actually 180 days was a few days ago, but I count the day of the month not total days). I only tried to quit the one time, and have not relapsed. It's that 110% thing applied to a sane undertaking!

Great thread you started here. I agree with every single positive thing that's been listed so far. They're all true. It's so great to be free of that monster! Here's my positive: I love living life again. I had lost that during my addiction, and I realize now for some years before it started. But now I feel so permeated by this sense of well being that I can hardly believe it at times. I really do feel like anything is possible, and it's a beautiful thing.

[cork712]

Even though I can't see much of a difference in me, my 14 yr old said today (when he was home sick), "You are being so motherly today--thanks." It stopped me in my tracks. I have been so emotionally removed and the influx of feelings now is exhausting sometimes. It's little things like that, waking refreshed, not hiding pills, etc. that make these days better. It's like focusing binoculars or tuning in a radio station--seeing my life more clearly now.