Possible relapse?????

[confused456]

I have been dreading this post, but I have to do it. I do not want to go into all the details of it, but I need to post. On Friday night, I got into a huge fight with my a$$hole spouse. Let's just say that I was in some major pain and so I took 3 Vicoden. The strength was 5/500....my DOC was Lortab 10/650. I took one pill every four hours starting at 4a.m. and ending at noon Saturday. By Saturday night, my stomach was in so much pain that I couldn't even walk, so I went to the ER, when I got there, my blood pressure was through the roof and they gave me an IV, then I was given 2 doses of Dilaudid (which I had never had before), and then 2 hours later, I got a 3rd dose of Dilaudid. I got a bunch of tests done and all the fun stuff, but my main concern is whether or not this is a relapse? I have not taken anything since the ER visit.

[confused456]

Vic...yes I know your feelings and views.

10356....Thank you so very much. I needed to hear that! Thanks a bunch!!

[10356]

Hi confused
Sorry to hear you are having to deal with disabilitating pain and the prospects of exploratory surgery on top of all the emotional but Please rest your mind, you did not have a relapse you took 3 pills over time for severe pain, not to get high not to escape emotional pain but to lessen severe pain.. Your 85 days are yours and can be claimed with a clear conscious, please do not worry... Take care of yourself and try not to stress over this as that will only add to your pain .. Tale care

[VicUser]

I don't think you need to worry about this being a relaps, we have talked about this type of thing before and you know my feelings. I am so sorry to hear about your pain.

[confused456]

Coco....yes I do thank you for that and I did not take it that you were judging me. Thank you.

[confused456]

Clamity and all:
I did not take them for emotional pain, it is and was physical pain. Here is what I did not want to get into but I guess in order to be honest about it, I may have to.

I went to the ER for pain, physical pain. When I got tot he ER, my BP was through the roof and the Dr. said he knew I was in severe pain just by how high my Blood pressure was. I got a ****-load of tests done including: urine specimen, blood drawn, Cat Scan of my abdomen, X-rays of my abdomen. The ER Dr. has referred me to a Specialist and he also wants me to have surgery so they can shove a camera down my throat into my abdomen to "look around" because he thinks I have some internal damage.

Also, I am over withdrawals, the physical part at least, yes the mental part is there sometimes, but I am doing great as far as that goes. I am currently on day 85 today if this was not a relapse. I am not being dishonest with myself. I would NOT have taken anything if I was able to actually move, but the pain was that bad that I could not even move around, I was curled up in a fetal position crying. That is all that I could do.

[cocobeanlisa]

Please I am not judging you at all, I agree  that if you took the Rxed amount for real
physical pain then it's not a relapse.

So please I am not judging you at all.  I am was just trying to say do not beat
your self up, give yourself a little credit, and relax.

I am not here to judge anyone for anything.

I support your decision and your recovery.
cocobean