Hi..your w/ds should be relatively minimal this time around. My question for you is, what kind of after care are you getting???? I know we preach a/c alot here but it works...you need a/c to learn the tools to deal with triggers or to avoid them. there are many different kinds of a/c, from counselling to na/aa...check it out..
Withdrawls are withdrawls and you sound like you know the drill. It seems more like you need help getting a grip on the triggers. The only way I know of for people that are surrounded by triggers to stay straight is lots of involvment in 12 step meetings. That will give you a chance to be around non-using people and if you take advantage of it a place to vent about your surroundings ways to deal with them. Some times you almost have to hide there untill you feel save in your sobriety. There is no rule I am aware of that says you have to like AA/NA for it to work. I used to go and hate it while I was there but feel much better and stronger when I left. Its just a test sometimes to see how bad you want to be clean. (For me anyway) Good Luck
Cunning, baffling and powerful...
Get yourself into some meetings, Brother. AA/NA have been a savior for me, as well as some outside counseling and daily talks with my sponsor.
It has been recommended to me before to join an aftercare group like AA/NA stuff. I keep convincing myself that I am not nearly to the point where I need to be involved in these groups. It's becoming more and more apparent that this is not the case. I really do need something. I just need to find a good fit and it makes me nervous to get involved with this sort of thing. It's almost like admitting defeat...and I don't want to admit that...
NO< NO< NO it is not defeat!!! It is victory...when you finally surrender to your disease and admit you have no control over it, it controls you, you will begin to WIN!!!! I think your addiction is feeding you lies!!!