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[Philinmass]

I never tnight I had an addictive personality. About a year ago istarted using coke. I was depressed had lost my girlfriend, crashed my car while drunk and coke made me feel better I actually believed it was helping me. I felt upbeat, carefree , alert and the high seemed incredible' . But as we all know, it takes over. I started doing it in the morning to get going and during the day just to make it through. I'm up to 5 grams a week. The financial toll is horrible  but I'm really worried about my health, I have pains in my heart, my sinuses r all blocked ( i take sudafed and nasal spray just to be able to beath) and I
look horrible.I feel paaranoid I have low self asteem, I isolate myself and don't have many friends. I can't tell anyone especially my family and I need help.

[gizzy32]

Welcome to the forum man. I understand everything your saying, I have been there, snorting lines in the morning just to get up and get going and to make it through the day cause without it I could not function. As you can see, addiction is progressive and as tolerance builds, we start using more and more. Your getting in dangerous territory here now dude with the heart pains. Cocaine almost killed me and I am lucky to be alive after my overdose so PLEASE, put an end to this.

You said the best thing you could have in your post "i need help". My suggestion is to cut off all contacts for getting blow, stop drinking cause that just fuels the cocaine and cravings and continue to post here and reach out like your doing now:) N/A meetings would be a great idea also

I believe that by keeping our addiction a secret, keeps us sick. If there is anyone close to you that you trust, tell them, it will hold you accountable. I wish you the best and I am back on here again so message me if you need too. Be safe and be happy, your worth it.

[sweatinit]

Hi Phil, Welcome the the forum. Sounds like you want to get clean and that is a great frist step! I thought i was in your spot with opiates in terms of not being able tot ell anyone. You'll read post after post baout how fearful we are about telling ppl only to find out that either they already know or they are more than willing to help. Addiction happens to so many of us regardless of race, status, etc...Have you considered n/a meetings? I personally dont have experience with coke so I am not familiar if you can just go c/t or if you have to wean. Others may come on later that can help. Hang in tere and keep posting here.