give me strangth PLEASE

[desperatechezzzoo]

please everyone i need your strength to get me through this. I am on day 16 off methadone and on Saturday i got the worst call  of my life. My 12yr old daughters father had been killed on his harley. She lived fulltime with him and i would see her regulary. My daughter is now in my care fulltime. This is so scary and painful.Her dad was the best man i have ever known. How do i live up to him? I will not let him or my daughter down but im petrified. I need this withdrawal to end like yesterday so i can get on with being the mum i should have always been. Please prayer for us (i'm not even a religious person but it might help)

[road2recovery]

I am also so very sorry for what has happened...it just broke my heart to read this...Great job, on staying off the methadone..I know that has to be extremely hard at a time like this..I am praying for you, your daughter and family..God bless..
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[candothis247]

so sorry for you loss, all the more reason to stay clean, prayers to you and your family to give you the strength and courage to get thru this.

[10356]

Thinking of you and wishing you well.. lesa

[scaredmom330]

my deepest sympathy. I am very proud of you, most people would go right back on their DOC, you choose to go into this most difficult time sober. You and your daughter are in my thoughts and prayers. Be strong for the little one, she so needs you right now. take care and pm me anytime you need to talk.

[desperatechezzzoo]

thank you so much. as for the methadone atm i am feeling ok to do this without it as i just finished a 5 day course of suboxone that i think has got me through the worst of it. thank god i did that as i would not have been in any shape to take on this pain. I was getting methadone legally by the way. methadone is not an option as is nothing else really as my daughters father is trying to take my daughter  off me due to my drug use so i MUST stay clean to be able to keep any chance i have at keeping my daughter.. I must go now as i have a million things to do b4 picking my daughter up again from her aunty. they have been organising the funeral. again thank u for your well wishes

[desperatechezzzoo]

Thank u for ur support and your prayers. We need them all.

[Kevin_Bacon]

First, my condolences to you -- just unspeakable, the situation you describe. The only thing I can think of at this late hour is: Can you /would you consider going back on Methadone for a few more weeks, or perhaps some substitute for it?

Your circumstances are hard to fully imagine -- I just know that it's perfectly legit to go back on Meth -- you've had 16 days' practice at quitting; you can do it again! -- in order to function throughout this catastrophe.

I assume you were gettin Meth legally -- regardless, it's worth considering to help you through for a few more weeks.

Again, Sorry to hear ...

[10356]

I'm so very sorry for your loss.. My heart just dropped when I read this.. You are living up to him by getting off the methadone and striving to be the best mom possible.. I hope you can reach out for support through family friends at this time for help with your child and grief..  The wd will not end but you have the Strength and Motivation to see it through.. I myself believe in the power of prayer and when added with many it is loud.. Grief is something you need to go through.. gather the good he added to your life and this will also give you strength.. My heart felt condolences.. lesa