Just want to vent

[Lovemyfam2000]

Hey guys all I have to say is that I give so much credit to u guys on here that actuly are able to just stay clean I got to say yes my energy is getting better but just like dam it's so hard right I have been trying sooooooooo hard to keep a good front for my kids I love them so much i have been such a grump since I quit taking pills im just so sad about it already my husband is just making me crazy he just don't get it u know the last to days I have been thinking none stop about why did I even quit keep thinking about calling my dr and just saying screw it then I can tell my husband to kiss my *** cause right now I just don't have strength to fight and be able to just do what I was doing. Tom is going to be 8 weeks since I went ct and seriously just loosing hope. Wow I can't believe that I put my self in this position I'm so angry and sad.  If it wasent for my kids I would have caved already. I'm going to try to stick it out for them I hope it gets better I really do like I said I give u guys sooooooo much credit cause this is one tough road and thank you guys for being so great besides my thripest u guys really are my only support

[Lovemyfam2000]

Thanks u guys it's was a long weekend but no I didn't give in iv just been under so much stress I really am trying to stay strong as hard as it is. I had a long talk with my husband and he said he's going to be more supportive it's funny he said he don't understand why I'm not better by now Im like it's only been 8 weeks it takes time but it was nice to get my feelings out in the open

[wantoutofhell]

Don't give up!!! You are out of the worst of it!  I'm only on my third day without oxys and it's a *****!  For sure!  I don't want to have to do this again. I'm sure you don't either! You are worth so much more!  Maybe someone else can take your mom to get her oxys.  That would be super hard.  She's gotta understand and be proud of you. Give her money for a cab if you have to!  But just take it one day at a time. If I think it's FOREVER, I'd lose my mind. Just today...that I can handle. Will keep you in my prayers!  You definitely don't want to be where I am right now, again!  Neither do I.  It's one of hardest things I've ever done. God bless you! And thanks for the good wishes for everyone.  Stay strong.  

[quitinoxys]

LoveMyFam---Please don't even think about sneaking one of your Mom's oxys....STAY STRONG you can make it through this. I know exactly how you feel I was there about 8 months ago. I thought  would never get my energy back but alas I did. As far as credit you deserve just as much as any on this forum as you are doing just as well as all of us have. So keep going you are doing great and you will make it all the way. God Bless---Rick

[Lovemyfam2000]

Thanks what's crazy is I just had to take my mom to pick up her oxys have to stay strong

[Resilient_Mimi]

Man, chic you are the one!  You keep your head up high.  Do this for you! Not just your kids.  I would try doing things to better your mood, get you some sun light, take a walk, get some exercise.  Start the day with a prayer for strength, this helps alot!!  You got it beat, your going to have to put yourself in positive places with positive people.... YOu feed off of each other, so try it! You have come too far girly.  I'll pray for you and wish you lots of luck

[Lovemyfam2000]

Thank you Brian I'm trying to hang in there

[bmdad]

Don't you dare cave!! You are well over the hump and although you can't see it right now, level ground is just ahead. I've been through it and understand where you are coming from so I know exactly where you are at and boy are you close. You know you can't stay on these evil pills forever and if you cave you will have to repeat the previous 8 weeks and I can tell you from experience that each time gets harder and harder. Trust me.

Are you exercising? What about vitamins and supplements? Eating the right foods for energy? If not all this will make a huge difference.

Keep on fighting. It may not feel like it now but it's so worth it.

Hang in there. I'm pulling for ya!


Brian