Crack

[Deana1970]

What is it about crack cocaine that makes people so darn crazy???? I have done drugs most of my adult life and never stole, had sex, or cheated for the drug. But it seems like crack is a completely different monster. How does someone who says they love you..up and disappear for days on end...with no explanantion and not even feel guilty about it??????  HOW?????????

[Deana1970]

yes he has done this before, then showed up at my door crying, dirty and begging for me to take him back. I always did. Not this time..I can not keep doing this to myself. It hurts so bad. Not knowing if he was out sleeping around, doing god knows what...I cant take it an longer. I love him but cant stand this.

[maria920]

Please don't think he doesn't love u!!!!   Hes not himself bc if the crack taking over . He has to want to get clean first. They say u have to hit ur rock bottom before u change. If he were to change for u or anyone other than himself he would ever up relapsing. Has he ever talked about treatment or astopping? I kno its hard . How long has he been using? Keep in mind u also have to look out for urself in all this. Has he ever left like this?

[Deana1970]

I guess I compare myself to him and think..I got clean why cant he???? I never have done the bad things he has and dont understand how he could do this to me...when I told him I loved him..I meant all of him...I guess he did not ever really love me or he would at least keep trying to change..and get better.

[Deana1970]

My boyfriend....he has been gone now for 3 days..he texted put wont tell me where he is or who he is with...im so scared and sad for him...he is going to die if he does not stop..and I think he doesnt even care anymore.

[maria920]

Deana I don't have any experience with crack but I am an addict and the addict brain takes over and everything is about getting ur next fix. Its not tht we don't love our husbands or wives its the fact tht our brain is so messed from the drugs it makes us believe in only tht drug. Is it ur husband or boyfriend who is on crack or you?