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Ritalin addicted
Hello everyone,
First of all sorry for my English, this is not my language. I don't write in my country forums because people are not so experienced and there is not so much information.
I am 30 years old and have been addicted to all kind of drugs. I lost almost everything because of my addictions.
I was have been sober of cocaine for 8 months now. I used to inject it IV. Sometimes with heroine. Fortunately I never got addicted to heroine.
So, in my country unemployment rate is 25% more or less. Even with a university degree and speaking 3 languages is very difficult finding a job. One year ago I decided to study a public examination to work in public employment. Around 15.000 people are taking this exam for only 700 vacancies. It's a very difficult exam. So for the last year I have been studying between 7 and 10 hours a day, weekends included.
I guess that due to all my past drug addiction and the meds I still take, trazodone, metadone (only 15mg currently), pregabaline... or I don't know why, my concentration and memory is very poor compared to the rest of people.
2 months ago, and guessing that my exam would be in January or February,I decided that I needed extra help to give a boost in my mental abilities. So,I decided to take ritalin until the exam, then I would quit. I remember taking this meds when I was 18 years old to study for my final exam to enter in university.
At the beginning I used to take as prescribed,3 tabs of 20mg a day. I upped the dose as the weeks passed. I was amazed with my results, I could study the whole day and got not tired. I went from being one of the worst students in my academy, to sometimes be the first one. This is my first year and the other guys it's their 3 or 4th year. By the way, the exam is in March.
So, since 3 days ago,I am taking 25 tabs a day. I don't know how I could be so stupid and didn't notice I was taking so many tabs. Each box contains 30 tabs and they cost me a fortune. I haven't mentioned that since 3 weeks ago I began snorting, which I think is the worst thing I could do. I snort around 15 tabs a day, rest oral.
The nightmare began yesterday, when I started feeling really bad, depressed, very poor concentration, very nervous and things like that. I snorted 2 tabs, and the effect lasts 15 min. I started researching trough the internet about ritalin addiction and effects when trying to quit, and I got really scared.
I don't know what to do, but I am in serious trouble. I know writing this post and asking for solution is not the way to solve this problem.
As I have mentioned, the exam is in one month so I must keep studying when with poor concentration. I obviously don't want to go to a detox center, not on this moment. The only solution that comes to my mind is tapering off perhaps half tab a day. I don't know what is happening in my brain but I can't concentrate studying and my memory has dissapeared. Perhaps it's because I have been taking for the last 3 days 1gr of pregabaline, which kills your brain.
I really need your help, for sure some of you have dealed with this situation. First of all,I think I need to stop snorting, as I think this is the main problem to need higher doses each day.
I am alone, only have my uncle and he tells me I should stay at home for 3 or 4 days and try to quit cold turkey but I can't afford being 3 days without study. He is very worried and I promised him I will taper each day half tab, but I find it impossible.
So you know if there is any med that can help with dopamine regulation? Would it help?
Thank you so much for your help. Wishing to hear from you.
First of all sorry for my English, this is not my language. I don't write in my country forums because people are not so experienced and there is not so much information.
I am 30 years old and have been addicted to all kind of drugs. I lost almost everything because of my addictions.
I was have been sober of cocaine for 8 months now. I used to inject it IV. Sometimes with heroine. Fortunately I never got addicted to heroine.
So, in my country unemployment rate is 25% more or less. Even with a university degree and speaking 3 languages is very difficult finding a job. One year ago I decided to study a public examination to work in public employment. Around 15.000 people are taking this exam for only 700 vacancies. It's a very difficult exam. So for the last year I have been studying between 7 and 10 hours a day, weekends included.
I guess that due to all my past drug addiction and the meds I still take, trazodone, metadone (only 15mg currently), pregabaline... or I don't know why, my concentration and memory is very poor compared to the rest of people.
2 months ago, and guessing that my exam would be in January or February,I decided that I needed extra help to give a boost in my mental abilities. So,I decided to take ritalin until the exam, then I would quit. I remember taking this meds when I was 18 years old to study for my final exam to enter in university.
At the beginning I used to take as prescribed,3 tabs of 20mg a day. I upped the dose as the weeks passed. I was amazed with my results, I could study the whole day and got not tired. I went from being one of the worst students in my academy, to sometimes be the first one. This is my first year and the other guys it's their 3 or 4th year. By the way, the exam is in March.
So, since 3 days ago,I am taking 25 tabs a day. I don't know how I could be so stupid and didn't notice I was taking so many tabs. Each box contains 30 tabs and they cost me a fortune. I haven't mentioned that since 3 weeks ago I began snorting, which I think is the worst thing I could do. I snort around 15 tabs a day, rest oral.
The nightmare began yesterday, when I started feeling really bad, depressed, very poor concentration, very nervous and things like that. I snorted 2 tabs, and the effect lasts 15 min. I started researching trough the internet about ritalin addiction and effects when trying to quit, and I got really scared.
I don't know what to do, but I am in serious trouble. I know writing this post and asking for solution is not the way to solve this problem.
As I have mentioned, the exam is in one month so I must keep studying when with poor concentration. I obviously don't want to go to a detox center, not on this moment. The only solution that comes to my mind is tapering off perhaps half tab a day. I don't know what is happening in my brain but I can't concentrate studying and my memory has dissapeared. Perhaps it's because I have been taking for the last 3 days 1gr of pregabaline, which kills your brain.
I really need your help, for sure some of you have dealed with this situation. First of all,I think I need to stop snorting, as I think this is the main problem to need higher doses each day.
I am alone, only have my uncle and he tells me I should stay at home for 3 or 4 days and try to quit cold turkey but I can't afford being 3 days without study. He is very worried and I promised him I will taper each day half tab, but I find it impossible.
So you know if there is any med that can help with dopamine regulation? Would it help?
Thank you so much for your help. Wishing to hear from you.
COMMUNITY LEADER
There is always hope so dont ever give up. I would go to that private detox center and check into longer term care. Using is only a symptom of what is really going on with us. We are here so please let us know what you are going to do and how you are. We care~
COMMUNITY LEADER
Buying meds online is very dangerous and i am worried about you. Please talk to us as we know what you are going thru.
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Hi, I am destroyed, I am alone and I don't know what to do, of going to my uncle house and taper, going to detox center 2 weeks (I should wait 2 weeks for this) or go inmediately to a different city and enter a private detox center.
COMMUNITY LEADER
I was wondering the same thing...Where are all the drugs coming from?
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I buy it to someone on the internet. I really think this is not an important issue and not the main problem.
It shows you really are exceeding the recommended dose so should consult the manufacturer and a doctor to discuss how dangerous this combo is. Here is what drugs.com says:
"What happens if I overdose?
Seek emergency medical attention or call the Poison Help line at 1-800-222-1222. An overdose of methylphenidate could be fatal."
"What happens if I overdose?
Seek emergency medical attention or call the Poison Help line at 1-800-222-1222. An overdose of methylphenidate could be fatal."
For clarity, my last post means you are overdosing all day long so your life is at risk. If I were you, I would switch focus from your career to your health, because there may be long term damage that shows up later from your current daily overdosing.
Maybe you can call the drug manufacturer and ask for technical information about your effects and suggestions on the best method of quitting.
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Where are you getting these 4 meds? You are taking 8 times as much ritalin as prescribed, so that is also part of my question where are all the meds coming from?
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