i'm out so I guess tommorrow is Day 1...

[chemjunki]

This is scary. I am nervous about tommorrow. I know i will ache in the morning and somehow I have to manage to get up and get ready for work w/ out the help of my upper. I am staying focused and the fact that I've done this before so I can do it again. But i'm still scared. I have a 2 yr old. I thought about talking to someone about subox... but I dont have a dr. and I'm scared to tell anyone. Scared they will punish me for what and who I have become. So I guess I'll go at it the hard way. I know why I start this and keep going back. I have emotional issues. I have anxiety disorder and I am very very moody. So the pills help make me feel comfortable with my surroundings and they make me happy. So I know why I do it. I just dont know what to do to make me NOT want to. I need prayers. I need support. I too want to see life clearly.

[addict3]

Is it possible for you to see a Dr. for the emotional issues?.....pain pills are not rx'd for that and could make it worse.

The only thing that will help you to not take them is a gut wrenching desire not to take them.

There is plenty of non-judgemental support here if you want to quit.
I have not used sub. many say it helped them some say the W/D is just postponed.
Don't be scared, plenty of people here have been where you are and got help. all you have to do is ask.

I will send prayers your way............Good luck to you!

[chemjunki]

I have access to some anti anxiety meds... that will help i'm sure. I'm a little worried about the stomach part. I have had colitis before and I am really scared of a relapse. However when I quit c/t 2 yrs ago the immodium worked well and kept it from flarring up. I cant believe I am even going through this again. Makes me so angry at myself. I just have to remember 'dont panic'...

[Ella789]

  Hi hon,  I know it will be rough for a few days but you know you can ride it out.  It will be hard having a little one to take care of .  Take the immodium, you will need it before long and besides it will help with the receptors in the stomach.  I wish you could see a Dr. as he could help you with a few meds. That would make it easier for you.  Try the "arthritis" kind of pain meds otc., and heating pad.  The Thomas recipe is in the Health Pages , some info that may help you some there.  Keep posting and ask questions.  Once you detox then you know you will have the mental thing for awhile.  Hang tough and be strong, you will be okay, we are here.  You are valuable and your child loves you and needs you so you have alot to fight for.!
El