Day one no Oxy

[DocMo471]

I'm in the same place again. Came off last June hard after being on percs and oxys and adderrol. This time just Oxy but been on for months all prescribed for low back pain after three vertebrae fusion. Can't sleep right now and found this sight. Been seeing an addiction counselor and my dr knew I have problem but kept prescribing cuz I kept asking. Rebound pain is so bad right now I can't stand it! I stayed home today but have to go in tomorrow and I'm sure there's a refill waiting at the pharmacy cuz I emailed my dr this am. I want them but I don't want to lose my family or career. Been in army 22 yrs, Iraq twice. Haven't functioned longer than a few months w/o some sort of pain meds in the past 7-8 years. I dont want to do it anymore but I'm scared.... More scared of never seeing my wife and kids again but even that hasn't been enough. I hate this.... I pray for all on this site tonight. God Bless

[justneedtotalk]

First off......Welcome!  You need to take a serious look at your situation immediately!  I too was introduced to narcotic pain relievers for injuries I sustained in the military years ago.  I tried to quit several times but like you, never made it more than a few weeks without refilling.....My habit got to the point where I was gobbling my script up in a few days then I would have to find other sources to maintain my supply.....I am a normal working business professional, married with small child, and live a good life.  I too tried to keep my addiction a secret from my wife after I had told her I was no longer taking them.....This went on for years until she finally had enough and wanted some answers....I was a great husband but the lack of sex drive on my part and bouts of sickness every other month started to form a pattern and she was on to me at some level.....She did not know that I was still on pain meds but she knew something wasn't right......

One day here about 11.5 days ago I just stopped.....I stopped and took a serious look at my double life.  I was actually starting to hover around the area of starting to lose things.  My wife was onto me....My habit was costing me 500-700 dollars a month....I knew that I had a problem and needed to quit but I never took it seriously and would relapse time and time again. I finally listened to the people on this site whom which witnessed detox/relaspse one after another.....I took their advice and came clean with my wife and doctor, I went and eliminated any and all ability to get pills and I just quit.  I prepared by getting most if not all of the suppliments on the Amino Therapy health pages area of this site.  I also alloted a Friday through Sunday to go through the initial stages of detox.....My wife was pissed but supportive and I am now 11.5 days sober and starting to really feel a lot better.  If you dicipline yourself to choke down the vitamins, protein, and other suppliments and drink lots and lots of water you will get through this fairly quickly.  If you intigrate some exercise the minute you can get off the couch into your daily routine, will help shorten your detox considerably......You can do this.....If I can do this, anyone can do it!  You just have to admit that this problem is bigger than you and you need help to get over it.....If you don't you know just like I did that you run a huge risk of losing what you worked so hard to get.......YOUR FAMILY......Pleas choose wisely!!!!!   God Bless!

[DocMo471]

Thanks all. I haven't been on cuz I'm ashamed. I couldn't work with the state I was in and I got a refill. I failed.... I wasn't able to function at work so I made the call. My wife has no idea but I am lying to her. Typical move. I thought I could make it one day at work and then the next I would b fine. Dreaming. I'll keep on this site. I'm sure there will b a next time....

[halstead124]

HEY WHATS UP IM GOING THRU PRETTY MUCH SAME JUST FOUND THIS SITE I THINK LATE SUNDAY GAVE MY WIFE MY XANAX LIMTED MYSELF TO PAIN PILLS AND SUNDAY I TOOK THE LAST ONES AND IVE BEEN UP EVER SINCE WHEN IM AT THIS POINT IT STARTS TO GET HARD LITTLE SLEEP IF ANY BUT GOT TO STOP LIKE YOURSELF YEARS OF LIVING LIKE THIS MY KIDS SEEING ME CANT DO ANYTHING WITHOUT PILLS IN ME ,AWHILE AGO I DID QUIT FOR ABOUT SIX WEEKS BUT IN MAJOR DEPRESSION SO I FELT WORSE I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO DO ,TIME WENT BY AND DECIDED SUNDAY NIGHT WAS IT FOUND THIS SITE READ ALL THE POST AND PRETTY MUCH BEEN SITTIN HERE SINCE BUT THESE TWO PEOPLE HAD ALOT OF GOOD ADVICE TOLD ME WHY I DIDNT MAKE IT FIRST TIME HOW THERE WAS SO MUCH MORE TO IT BUT NOW I KNOW IT AINT HARD JUST GOTTA GET YOUR HEAD BACK ON STRAIGHT TAKES LITTLE BIT IT WORKED FOR THEM SO GOT TO TRY JUST CANT STAND LIVING LIKE THIS ANYMORE ,READING YOUR POST YEAH IT IS SCARY I WAS REAL SCARED WHEN I HEARD MY WIFE ON PHONE GETTIN READY TO BOOK BACK HOME WITH MY KIDS BELIEVE ME IF YOUR KIDS AND YOUR WIFE LIKE MY WIFE HAS HAD IT ,IT WILL BE ENOUGH  I KNOW DUDE ITS BRUTAL I JUST STARTED ITS A LITTLE TUFF BUT IF I HAVE TO POP PILLS TO HANGOUT WITH MY KIDS OR TO DO ANYTHING I GOT TO END IT CANT FUNCTION WITHOUT PAIN PILLS  I CANT LIVE LIKE IT ANYMORE AND YOU CAN DO IT TO ITS SOMETHING THATS JUST A HABIT A BAD ONE JUST QUIT WELL I  THINK I GOT A GOOD FEW DAYS LEFT OF THIS THEN HOPEFULLY  DONE.HAVE YOU TAKEN ANYTHING OR YOU CLEAN AND HAVING HARD TIME ? ILL BE AROUND FOR AT LEAST A FEW DAYS SO IF YA WANT HIT ME UP CAUSE I WILL BE UP FOR QUITE AWHILE ,GOOD LUCK LATER,BRO

[laurel453]

Welcome here , Docmo :)

there are members here with the same situation. They have to deal with pain on a daily basis and they became addicted to the pain pills because of it. As you said, rebound pain is hitting hard right now but i hope that in a few days, you will feel better. You know what to expect from your words but i wanted to give you my support now. Stay here, it is a good place with people going through the same as you. This is a slow time but soon members will come to give you some advices from their experience with pain..... have you tried acupuncture ?