Short term norco detox using methadone

[needhelp888111]

Good morning all;
This is my first post although as a pill addict trying each morning to get clean, lol, I read here often. I have tried suboxone 3 times, tramadol before that and each time have failed. I have 28 5 mg methadone, took 10 mgs this morning after much research and knowing the risks of doing this, but I have a plan, 3-4 days on the methadone. Today is 10 mg, 15 tops if the w/d's start later. Tomorrow 5mg if the 10mgs today stick, and so on. I think i will be able to get through the w/d's from the norco and be clean. I am so ready and determined and have been planning this for a long time. My 30th bday is Easter Sunday and I will succeed this time, for myself, my 2 kids and husband, who by the way has no idea of my addiction. I am quitting my job in 2 weeks, which is the place that allows for easy access to pills and becoming a stay-at-home-mom, for the reasons of being with my kids and having no more access to pills. I feel this is the only way I can really beat this addiction is to have no access. Any thoughts and/or support success stories etc., will be greatly appreciated. I have read the posts warning against methadone and truly feel for those people, but this time I am done with the bs and will make it.

[TysonRed]

The good news is with time our bodies to return to normal and we get some of the natural energy back. The problem with using the methadone like kim said is its still feeding the same receptors therefore keeping you from withdrawals. Its not like its going to keep away the norco w/d's and then be easier, when you stop using opiates period your body is going to withdrawal. Thats not to mention the risk you run of becoming addicted to the methadone when your just trying it for a week or so. The honest truth is taking methadone for a few days probably wont make the w/d's harder, but it certainly wont make it any easier, that much is assured. When it comes to norco or percocet, the main physical symptoms really only last about 5-7days, after that its basicly the mental aspects you have to deal with (cravings, depression, anxiety,fatigue, lack of sleep) those kind of things. If you really are ready to quit, I promise you that your more than capable of doing so. Its not easy, especially the staying clean part, but we are all stronger than we think, but at the same time scared of the w/d's. The one thing Ive learned with any opiate detox is the more you stress yourself out over the w/d's only makes them seem worse. Just know that we're all here for you, no one here has the room to be judgemental about anything. If I can help you out in anyway please feel free to send me a note/message or just post your concerns. Sometimes it may take a little while to get some responses but there so many people here that can help you through this process. I really do wish you all the luck in world, trust me life without pills is a feeling of true freedom and independence that we forget about during our addiction. Almost everyone tries and fails a few times before they actually get it right, so dont get discouraged by your previous attempts. You really can do this, the more things you can do to keep yourself occupied can really help keep your mind of the negative feelings. Again feel free to hit me up if I can assist you in any way, take care.

[needhelp888111]

It's like one minute I am strong and then the next I am sitting here reading other people's stories and crying and thinking how in the heck am I going to rescue myself? why me? why do some people keep pills in their cabinet for years without even thinking about taking them and then there's me, who takes a month supply in a couple days, but just keeps trying to quit and failing. it's like there's always an excuse, some event I have to attend or host and it would be so much better with just a few more pills in my system and then it's "I'll quit in the morning" all over again. how am i going to be able to keep uo with my two kids without the pills? i have never tried to before, that is so sad when I look in their eyes and try to convince myself that i am better mom because of the pills, happier, more energy etc..., but i feel like they don't even know the real me only the high me. do i even know the real me anymore?

[never_again73]

I know its hard to do...I was in the same boat, I relapsed and was so ashamed and it was the hardest thing to tell my wife I did it again.  But guess what...I bet he already has suspects.  We think we hide it, but when all is said and done you find out many people already suspect.  Its hard to swipe other peoples meds and them not start getting suspiscious. Especially if the dont abuse.  That I what I found out after coming clean. We only THINK we are hiding it.

[kim715]

I'm glad to hear you flushed the majority of the methadone.No matter what you decide to do hon,we're here for you.There is no judging here only help and support.I hope you find the strength to tell your husband.I know it's hard but it helps so much to have that support.If he is willing you could invite him to come here and read or post.We would be more then happy to try and help you explain to him just what addiction is and how it takes a hold of you.Best of luck hon and please keep posting......Kim

[kim715]

There is NO way to totally avoid any type of w/ds.The methadone is feeding the same receptors in your brain as the hydro did,thus when you are taking the methadone you're not feeling the w/ds.It's simply holding them off.Once you stop,you're going to feel them.Like TysonRed,I wish I had a  success story for you using this method.I can honestly tell you though I have been coming to this forum for over a year and have seen a few people try it the way you are and I just have to be honest.I have never seen it work out the way they thought it would.I have had many tell me though that they wish they would have never touched the methadone and just tapered off their original doc or just went cold turkey.I'm not saying any of this to scare you or to try in any way to discourage you from getting clean.I want all of us who come here to succeed.I just worry that when day 4 gets here and you don't take that methadone in the morning and by the evening you start to feel the w/ds that you will continue to use up the rest of the methadone you have on hand and that by doing so you will be taking your addiction to a new level.Please just take what we have all told you here into consideration.Learn from our mistakes.Keep reading the posts here and keep posting.We're all in your corner.We all want you to succeed....Kim

[needhelp888111]

also, i have no more norco's for at least 3 days so taper is out of question, and I always fail at that anyway. and no resource to the methadone when day 4 arrives as i just flushed any extra that won't be needed at the end of taper plan. thank you all for caring, i have felt so alone and ashamed. maybe i will tell my husband, but last time he wanted me to tell everybody-his parents, my co-workers, just so all would keep an eye on me, but i wasn't ready for that. i told my parents and family, they are in a different state though and if tell them this time will just feel helpless.