Time 4 change...

[chemjunki]

I am 34. I am a mom of a 2 year old. I started taking pain meds (hydros) in June of 07. About 10mg 7-8 per day. I quit using in Jan of 08. I did good for a little while. I dont know why I ever started back. I started again in about June of 08 to present. I take 5-6 5mg per day. It may not sound like much compared to some. But the simple fact is I hate the addiction and want to stop. No one knows. This is an evil secret that lives inside of me. Im in tears just telling this to you. I need to stop. Last time I tapered for 3-4 days and then c/t. I can do either now too. I need some support. I need someone to talk to when I feel scared or alone. I have let this addiction control me and I want to be free of it.

[worried878]

good 4 u..and lucky for u that ur dose is not any higher..many times when people relapse it is a higher dose than before quitting..sounds like u have alot of discipline...in a few days u will feel so much better....whether u ct or taper..keep posting as there is lots of support here

[flmagi]

We all know exactly what you're going thru and how you feel. We're here for you , so keep posting and keep us updated on what you're doing and how you're doing.
You can get clean again, and this time for good!
Magi

[jollyman069]

We are here for you, I am 75 days clean of a 4 year love affair with morphine and percs, so know where your at and how you feel if you need to chat vent or whatever please feel free to pm me i am here often and you will get great support from all the MH family, all of us here that has been addicted are family....brian

[troubleinohio]

hi and welcome. Im also a mom to two young children, and had been a long time vicodin addict. I was clean almost a year and then had a brief relapse just a month and half ago which Im clean from again about 40 days or so. Im currently tapering off xanax now (which i did not abuse or get high from but my dr. cut me off it just the same and now i must suffer the WD).

You can get through this and do this. You will feel so much better once youre off and you realize how much closer you will be to your child! Trust me, you may not realize it yet but youve been in a fog and missing alot. STop the addiction now and you will be amazed how much stronger your bond with your child will become when your not numbed to the world.
xo xo

[Reign30]

you will find all the support you need, im just a day ahead of you trying to recover.  these people here, you listen, the sympatise.  we all have been trhough this.  we all have our stories.  someone will know exactly what you are going throuhg.  keep posting and you'll find the help you need.

[discretekarma]

You're not alone here.  I've gone cold turkey from 200mg of oxycontin. Today is the begining of day 3 for me. There is great support on this site. It may be a little slow today since it's memorial day and it's so early but if you just wait a bit you're sure to get support.  Good luck and let me know if I can help.