Starting over

[stilltrying1965]

Well most of you know me. I have to admit that i have been useing heroinfor the last 3 to 4 weeks. Not smoking it iv been shooting it up. Iv let myself down my wife and family. I need serious help. Iv not eat anything in that time. I just bumped into that bad crowd again . I would understand if you guys dont want to help me or worth helping me. I feel worthless.Maybe i was born to die an addict. I also think stop going to my meetings helped me fall back into my old waysIm a waste of space and probibly your time im sorry. If kim finds out i think she will leave me for good i deserve that.........J

[vicki595]

This is your rock bottom James.  Don't punish yourself. Get some help. Get a doctor.
Go to the hospital. Just go.  No food,no heat...you won't last long there.

GET TO A HOSPITAL.  I mean it.

[stilltrying1965]

iv been evicted from my house by kim tomuch arguing. im in my own house no heating nothing to eat. kim threw herr wedding ring back at mebt i regret putting it down a sewer. me and kim are finished she called my mom and two sisters names,that hurts i know now kim does not love me. There mst be easier ways lifs ****. i will never break a pinjie promise ang we also do the here LOL well im not feeling to good keep sneezing being sick. it so hard V i understand about sub but i dont have a doctor could only happen to me. iv locked myselw awayin my house but its so cold,,,,james

[ang_811]

Come on here and talk to us James...

[vicki595]

Are you doubting that you can stay clean?   That's a bad sign,James.   I know you well now. That's your code for "I'm going to use as soon as I get my hands on some $hit"...

Think hard and long James. Call your therapist. Go to a meeting. If you want to stop this crap,you'll stop. You have to want WANT it,though. I have a feeling you just "hang on" hoping the cravings go away.  That's why I think Sub would work for you. But,my thinking can't fix you.  You need to go after it...at least meet it half way...

xo

[gnarly_1]

Hey James just seen you post now....sorry to here you relapse I could tell from your mood tracker you have been struggling ....im glad to see your getting up dusting yourself off
and giving it a go again...James you can do this....but not without a plan...I hate to see you have to detox only to have to do it again...its time to get off the mery go round you need to stick with the conslors and stay with the meetings...when we quit going it only a mater of time till we relapse ...you have the ability to do this you have strung together some clean time b/4
you can do it again....remember we dont shoot our wounded here ....I just want to see you get well James your worth the fight   the next few days will be ruff but you have our support
I will encourage you as much as I can...hang in there bro...our friend Mark

[ang_811]

Pinky promises r serious and also law binding! I looked it  up n my law book.. : ) ... I don't make the rules!! So we have to stick with it....

How r u doing tonight?? Hope u r well...thinking of u!!! U have so much support here..! We r all pulling for u...ur freind Angie