Woohoo im clean in 2014 happy new year

[tigerlily75]

Well 2014 is here, ive been trying to quit opiates since nov 10, with a slip up thanksgiving and christmas. Well actually, i been trying to get clean for years, but its a brand new year, im a brand new me and I'm gonna be clean in 2014 no matter what!
Here's wishing everyone a happy and clean 2014!!!!
Faith trust and pixie dust!!!

[tigerlily75]

Awesome Vic! Just send me directions and I'll be on my way! :)

[VICourageous]

YOU can come up here..I sure can use the Help. Have not gotten much sleep for the past 3 days due to being on watch with my Dog and feeding him small meals every Hour. Now I can due this every 3 until Monday..Your Job will be easy..Just drive to town and pick up things..Hahaha

[tigerlily75]

Thanks everyone! Its so stressful and toxic here! I have to move asap. What's holding me back is money to a certain point plus I have no job and can't find one. But I have to get out of here!!!

[VICourageous]

Girl..You got to be friggen kidding me..NO SUPPORT at home is the hardest of it ALL. I am so happy I told Hospice and we made a plan to lock my Moms in a Lock Box and it his hid somewhere..I do not care. It is SO hard when they are right in your Face..This makes you have to work that much harder. With all my crisis around here lately, it would of been a really BAD Temptation if I seen them right in front of me. I just UP my Support System. Ha! I have not drank in about 9 years and that just make me sick to think about it. BUT you know that one can be right up our nose too!
Like that song..
You got to get out of that place, if it's the last thing you ever due. Girl there a better place for me & you..hahahaha

[tooter212]

I'm with CIK I'd get my own place right now!! What's holding you back? How much does it cost? Do you have the money?

[clean_in_ks]

Are you formulating some kind of "move out plan" even if it isn't the most ideal one permanently?  Changing your environment is HUGE...as you found out with your recent "room away" break.  That environment is TOXIC to you and YOUR kids.  First things first, of course....don't use no matter what....but top priority is to get you outta there. (AND find the courage to hit some meetings).  You CAN do it~

[tigerlily75]

Thank you Vic! Your post was dead on! And thanks for continuing to support me! Your awesome!!! I am going to try to get to some meetings this week for sure! And yes the stress and drama are almost unbelievable. The first thing my mom asked me when I got home was if I had any or could find any pills. I wish they would take my sobriety more seriously. But I know I can't change them, only me. I really hope we can get out of here and get our own house, just me and the kids asap

[VICourageous]

YOU BET I WILL!!! Stress & Drama is a danger zone for Addicts..We are used to running and trying to hide when things got bad or when we have a crisis of some kind. I sure hope you can find a place REAL SOON!! Meanwhile hit them Meetings..A lot of people get Help from others at those meetings. You could find someone who has Big House and needs a Roommate. Keep stepping up those stairs and do not fall because that could hurt..."Ouch" lol
Bless

[tigerlily75]

Pat, exactly!!! Its an adventure for as my kids and for me too! Its been wonderful to just relax and let my kids be kids! I knew being at my parents was rough but I'm not sure I realized how bad it is there!  And now I'm out of room money and back to there house. So anxious. Can everyone say a little prayer a wish something to help me stay clean and deal with this chaos im about to walk back into...

[Pat1956100]

That sounds like so much fun.  Your kids will remember it forever and you will too because you were sober.
Getting a room was a great idea.  Just so you can relax and let your kids be kids.  Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I can feel the relief.  Enjoy,

[tigerlily75]

Kyle, you are so right about everything you said. The new year will see a new me! And I agree there are no reasons to just use, only excuses!

Just wanted to report I am actually doing amazing! I'm only like 5 days or so this time, but I guess since I have been at this for awhile I'm fairly ok. Still definitely have the mental stuff...

But, I decided to get a room for the week with my kids, and I can't even believe how much stress is relieved just not being at my parents house!!! I definitely have to get my own place asap! My kids are actually behaving, having a good time! My little one is actually allowed to run around and play toys! I brought lots of stuff and there's even a full kitchen! And I brought myself some books, I went to the library and got like every Janet evonovich book they had that I haven't read lol! So now, I'm actually trying to read then in order, finished the very first one yesterday, and halfway through the second one now!

Ww had an awesome new years eve too! I let both kids stay up until midnight and we had a great time watching the show and the ball drop, and even shot off a few fireworks and watched lots of others!

I'm feeling great and excited about being clean in 2014!
And forever!!!
Faith trust and pixie dust!
Goodwill to all!!!
May 2014 be OUR YEAR!!!

[kyle505]

The new year will see a new you. Do the work; stay away from temptation, and, as Sarah says, always keep your guard up. There are no reasons to use, only excuses.
K

[tigerlily75]

Yes no matter what!!!

[dominosarah]

No matter what~