This is a great place to be. I have gained loads of stregnth and information from this site. Use the information here that you need and leave the rest behind. I would not be sober today without the help and informaton I have received here. My story is only to share how I have come to battle my addiction and recovery. I too was so affried to givien to the fear of wd's and that, that alone kept me prisnor to the drug. Because of the Sub's I was able to find a way to get free. It was a 3 month struggle with the subs, before I took the plunge and did what worked for me.
I hope our stories help others find their way.
I will keep updating as the days go by and let all know my progress.
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I started using pills when I was 13. I am now 27. I can't believe I am sitting here today. I was so reckless when I was younger. Get high on pills then add in some liquor and drive. I wrecked many times and shouldn't have lived but the lord had better and bigger things for me and I didn't see it then but I do now. I feel that God is telling me that I need to tell my story of Addiction to anybody and everybody who is faced with addiction or getting ready to make that choice to try a pill for the first time. If I could save 1 person from the hell I lived then I would feel my job was done. I was afraid Sub's was just gonna be a crutch for me but it was not. I am a Suboxone success and there are more out there but seems like you hear all the bad about Suboxone than good. I am gonna keep on posting how Suboxone saved my life. It works for you if you want it to work. I was not strong enough to go the Cold Turkey route. To each there own. I have read on here too many times ppl saying how bad Suboxone is and scaring ppl that are thinking about trying it. Everybody has a right to their own opinion but it shouldn't be to the point where it causes somebody not to give it a shot for the fear it will be hard to get off of. I was on it 8 months and I know ppl are on it for years and I am sure that it is harder to get off of then but short term is what it is made for when it is used to kick addiction. I know I am rambling on and on and I am sorry. I will end this now and get my butt in gear. Need to get this house clean. Been looking at it all day and it is not getting any cleaner LOL. Best wishes and keep posting to let me know how you are doing!!!!
Absolutely, I am in a program now and I currently attend NA meetings. This is now day 16 for me off all opiates and I am still getting better everyday. Also, the subs did help me get to this point only, meaning managing my w/d symptoms to allow me to be where I am right now.
Now, the rest of my sobriety is on me. I attend meetings and now have a sponsor. I am in therapy weekly and I am determined to stay clean with the help of the after care.
After aprox. 10 years on and off those pills, I can honestly say that it feels great to have made it to 16 days without them.
Message away sweetheart! That is what I am here for!
Also let me add. I started on 16mg a day and for the first month I couldn't drive after I took a Sub cause I would fall asleep. I had to have somebody with me at all times if I had taken any cause I have a son who at the time was 2 and he has Cerebral Palsy.I couldn't be left alone with my own child and that caused some serious depression but I pushed through all that. My body learned what was enough for me to take and not feel like a worthless mother. I called my Dr and made sure it was Ok with him that I play around with my dose to find the right one for me. My Dr told me that 1 8mg Sub is the same as 120mg opiate. So 240mg a day was too much for me cause I wasn't doing that much everyday. Some days I would and some days more. For the most part I took 6 Roxy 30's a day. Other days I would take them 6 add in some other of my favorites. Not all Dr's are bad and they do have to have training in order to prescribe Sub (atleast in WV). Ok I have said all I think I wanted to say. When I get some time I am gonna write my whole addiction and treatment story and hope to scare the hell out of some kids that haven't started or ones that just started. I will post it on here too. May take me a long time to write it but that is something I feel like God wants me to do,
I am glad you found a way that works for you BUT addiction is 90%mental and that can not be cured over night. I don't want to sound mean or like a know it all. I have been an addict for 14 years and I thought I could do the Sub's the way I wanted to and be fine with it. To be true I would be back on my DOC if I did it my way and not the way my Dr told me to. Suboxone is addictive BUT if you do it like your Dr tells you to and taper like you are supposed to the WD's are nothing compared to coming off of our DOC. I wish you the best and pray that you do get aftercare to help with the mental that comes with being an addict. We have a long road ahead of us but with a great support system and aftercare we can get our lives back. Luckily the Naltrexone that I am on now is NOT addictive so I could stop it at any time but I want to do this right in hopes that I can get the mental part more controlled. I have a lot of things going on in my life that could easily cause me to relapse but I am not gonna give in to the Devil and all the negative cause I have too much good to look forward to. If I didn't have God helping me everyday I wouldn't be able to do this. I do wish you all the best and hope that it works for you. If you ever want to talk I am here and will help anyway that I can.
Krissy