suboxins are worse then pains harder to kick
Welcome... I know the feeling. If there are pain killers anywhere near me, I will take them. No question. I am on day 5 today and finally beginning to see a light. Keep posting on here, it is really helping me through this. Remember, there is absolutely no judgement on this forum. You can do this!
I have very few pills left and I flux from taking 10 to 15 a day to 4 or 5. I just need my well dose in the morning and I can make it through for the most part. Not so much a taper as it just doesn't work for me. I'm going to cut off tomarrow (again) before I run out this time so that if I totaly freek out then I will have a pill to take.
No my bf does not have access to oxy anymore. The frustraiting thing is I do. I have told my dr. my issue and to be honest he doesn't care. He's a writer, plain and simple. I need to control myself is what it comes down to.
That's just somthing that I almost can't do. How much of a cop out is that? I really don't know why I can't stop poppin pills whenever I have them. I really don't understand why I can't. Urgggg
Thank you for all the support!
Have you been honest with your doctors about your addiction?
Hi & Welcome,
I first have to say that taking Vicodin to get off of H is a bad idea and I do not suggest it to anyone.
Heroin is my drug of choice so I hear what you are saying. For me, I spent 20 years running with it and the last few I spent in rehab or jail. H took me to places I did not want to be and with people I did not want to be with. At, what I pray was my last rehab stint, I began my recovery. Just being clean from drugs was not recovery for me. I started to get to the root of my problems that caused me to use drugs most of my life. I went through therapy for many years and became active in the fellowships of NA & AA. I believe it was that aftercare that saved me.
I stopped using many times, but I could not STAY stopped. I am sure you know what I mean.
So your boyfriend is holding them while you taper? Good idea and I hope you are successful with that. So what will you do to stay clean after the physical withdrawal is over? And does your bf still have access to Oxy?
Hey ! NO ONE will think you're a bad person in here ! It took me 4 times to get clean . We're here for you . What is your tapper plan ? How much were you taking per day ? Knowing all this helps all of us to get an insight into helping you . Lets get you started and we all are here to help ! Jimmy